The Triumph of Jill — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Triumph of Jill
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"Oh! I don't know," he answered. "I really thought that that last
portrait was a bit like me. Somebody told me I did look like that
sometimes when I had a liver attack."
"Evie said it was a libel," St. John remarked tentatively.
"Ah! Well, I should be sorry to contradict her," he replied, and Jill
fancied, though she could not be quite sure, that he looked slightly
displeased at the mention of Miss Bolton's name. Why should a name that
had once been his sole subject of conversation excite his annoyance now?
It was not consistent. Had it been a case of unrequited affection she
could have understood his being hurt, but displeasure was something she
could not account for; it irritated her, why she could not have
explained. She was not accustomed to analyse her sensations even to
herself; it would have been wiser if she had; for her instinct was
wonderfully true, and her nature peculiarly observant.
"You put me on my mettle," she said, smiling. "It shan't be a libel
this time I promise you if infinite pains can prevent."
"I am not afraid to trust myself in your hands," he said.
Jill laughed.
"That's very fulsome flattery," she answered. "I was responsible for
the libel, remember. Mr Thompkins declares that I shall ruin the firm
yet. It is so humiliating because I was so positive at first that I was
going to become one of those celebrated lady photographers who have all
the best people sitting to them, and can charge any price they like."
"It's just as well as it is, perhaps," St. John rejoined with
conviction. "Success would make you a horrid little prig, Jill; very
few people can stand it."
"If Mr Markham were not here," Jill returned, "I would tell you what I
think of you."
CHAPTER SIXTEEN.
Jill had got her canvas and everything in readiness, and was waiting for
her model. She had been waiting for about ten minutes, and was growing
slightly impatient; she hated wasting her time. St. John was busy in
the studio, unusually busy, so that he could not possibly get away even
for a few minutes. He wanted her badly, she knew; he always wanted a
mate, and she felt rather as if she were shirking. She looked at the
canvas in a dissatisfied kind of way, and then out of the window at the
people in the street.
"I believe," she mused, thinking of the absent Markham, "that I could
draw his face from memory."
Fetching a piece of paper she seated herself at the table and made a
rough sketch in pencil as she had once done of St. John, only in St.
John's case she had not trusted to memory. Markham arrived while she
was thus employed, and he stood by the table watching her, as she put in
the finishing strokes. He smiled while he watched as though he were
amused. Jill was grave and very much absorbed.
"What a wonderful little head it is," he said.