The Triumph of Jill — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Triumph of Jill
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"Petticoat government, eh?" sneered the old man. "I appealed to you
because I hoped that you would have profited by your own experience and
been glad of the opportunity of giving your son a chance. With women it
is different; they are so beastly selfish in their love; they always
want the object of their affection near them."
"Ask his mother," St. John repeated in a hard voice. "A mother has more
right than anyone else to decide the future of her child."
Jill, who had remained till now impassive, listening open-eyed to all
she heard, came forward as her husband finished speaking and stood
between the old man and the baby on the floor as though she would
protect the child from his grandfather's designs. She was quite calm
and collected; St. John wondered rather at her evident self-control.
"It is very good of you, Mr St. John," she said, "to make Baby such a
handsome offer. But you are wrong in thinking that a mother's love is
selfish; it is not where it is real; and it is entirely in my baby's
interests that I am going to regard your proposal."
"Going to refuse it you mean," he snapped.
Jill smiled.
"Going to refuse it if you like to put it that way," she said. "Of
course it would be splendid for Baby in one sense, but I don't think it
would be kind. I have never approved of bringing children up in a
different position to their parents. My boy, no matter how good-hearted
he turned out, would grow to look down upon his father, and the poor
little shop with its poorer photographs, and upon the kind old man who
stood Godfather to him, and drops his h's, but loves the child almost as
though he were his own. I have heard of such things before. Children
who are exalted to very different positions to their parents learn to
despise them, and feel ashamed of them, and then, of course, they
despise themselves for doing so; and altogether it is very hopeless, and
rather cruel, I think.
"Don't fancy me ungrateful; it is not that. It isn't that I wouldn't
spare my boy if I considered it all for the best; but I don't I think he
will be a much happier, and a better little boy if he is brought up just
as well as we can manage, with no more brilliant prospect than the
knowledge that he has to make his own way in the world as his father did
before him."
"So you are going to make an independent beggar of him as you did of his
father, eh? Well, I would have made him an independent gentleman. But
no matter. You possess the right unfortunately of ruining both their
futures. Perhaps one day you will remember my offer with regret, but
understand, please that I shall not renew it; neither will you or yours
benefit from me in any way."
"I had never expected that we should," Jill answered with proud
simplicity. "I have not been accustomed to luxury and so don't feel the
need of it. It is harder for my husband than for me, harder for him
than it will be for the boy; but I don't fancy that Jack minds it much."