"Good bye," flung Miriam stiffly at the departing face. Shutting the
neglected door she hurried back through the hall and resumed her
consciousness of Wimpole Street with angry, eager swiftness.... Eve,
getting mixed up with people ... it is right ... _she_ would not have
been angry if I had asked her to be nice to somebody.... I did not mean
to do anything ... I was proud of having the tickets to send ... if I
had not sent them I should have had the thought of all those nurses,
longing for something to do between cases. They are just the people for
the Students Concerts ... if she comes again.... "I can't have social
life, unfortunately," how furious I shall feel saying that "you see I'm
so fearfully full up--lectures every night and I'm away every week end
... and I'm not supposed to see people here----"
CHAPTER XXIX
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Miriam had no choice but to settle herself on the cane-seated chair.
When Miss Dear had drawn the four drab coloured curtains into place the
small cubicle was in semi-darkness.
"I hope the next time you come to tea with me it will be under rather
more comfortable circumstances."
"This is all right," said Miriam in abstracted impatient continuation of
her abounding manner. Miss Dear was arranging herself on the bed as if
for a long sitting. The small matter of business would come now. Having
had tea it would be impossible to depart the moment the discussion was
over. How much did the tea cost here? That basement tea-room, those
excited young women and middle-aged women watchful and stealthy and ugly
with poverty and shifts, those tea-pots and shabby trays and thick bread
and butter were like the Y.W.C.A. public restaurant at the other end of
the street--fourpence at the outside; but Miss Dear would have to pay
it. She felt trapped ... "a few moments of your time to advise me" and
now half the summer twilight had gone and she was pinned in this prison
face to face with anything Miss Dear might choose to present; forced by
the presences audible in the other cubicles to a continuation of her
triumphant tea-room manner.
"You must excuse my dolly." She arranged her skirt neatly about the
ankle of the slippered bandaged foot.
Anyone else would say what is the matter with your foot.... It stuck
out, a dreadfully padded mass, dark in the darkness of the dreadful
little enclosure in the dreadful dark hive of women, collected together
only by poverty.
"Have you _left_ your association?"
"Oh _no_, de-er; not _permanently_ of course," said Miss Dear pausing in
her tweakings and adjustments of draperies to glance watchfully through
the gloom.
"I'm still a member there."
"Oh yes."
"But I've got to look _after_ myself. They don't give you a chance."
"No----"
"It's rush in and rush out and rush in and rush out."
"What are you going to do? ... what do you want with me...."
"What do you mean de-er."
"Well I mean, are you going on nursing."