Miriam recoiled. Anything would have done; Donovan or anything.... But
something had sprung into the room. She gazed at the calm profile, the
long slender figure, the clear grey and pink, the pink frill of the
jacket falling back from the soft fair hair turned cleanly up, the clean
fluffy curve of the skull, the serene line of the brow bent in
abstracted contemplation of the steaming pan. "I believe you'd like it"
she said brightly.
"I should love you to read to me when we've 'ad our supper."
"Oh--I've had my supper."
"A bit of haddock won't hurt you dear.... I'm afraid we shall have to be
very knockabout; I've got a knife and a fork but no plates at present.
It comes of living in a _box_," said Miss Dear pouring off the steaming
water into the slop-pail.
"I've had my supper--really. I'll read while you have yours."
"Well, don't sit out in the middle of the room dear."
"I'm all right" said Miriam impatiently, finding the beginning of the
first chapter. Her hands clung to the book. She had not made herself at
home as Eve would have done and talked. Now, those words would sound
aloud, in a room. Someone would hear and see. Miss Dear would not know
what it was. But she would hear and see something.
"It's by a woman called Charlotte Brontë" she said and began headlong
with the gaslight in her eyes.
The familiar words sounded chilly and poor. Everything in the room grew
very distinct. Before she had finished the chapter Miriam knew the
position of each piece of furniture. Miss Dear sat very still. Was she
listening patiently like a mother, or wife, thinking of the reader as
well as of what was read, and with her own thoughts running along
independently, interested now and again in some single thing in the
narrative, something that reminded her of some experience of her own or
some person she knew? No, there was something different. However little
she saw and heard, something was happening. They were looking and
hearing together ... did she feel anything of the grey ... grey ... grey
made up of all the colours there are; all the colours, seething into an
even grey ... she wondered as she read on almost by heart, at the rare
freedom of her thoughts, ranging about. The book was cold and unreal
compared to what it was when she read it alone. But something was
happening. Something was passing to and fro between them, behind the
text; a conversation between them that the text, the calm quiet grey
that was the outer layer of the tumult, brought into being. If they
should read on, the conversation would deepen. A glow ran through her at
the thought. She felt that in some way she was like a man reading to a
woman, but the reading did not separate them like a man's reading did.
She paused for a moment on the thought. A man's reading was not reading;
not a looking and a listening so that things came into the room. It was
always an assertion of himself. Men read in loud harsh unnatural voices,