Miss Dear's face broke into weeping. Miriam sat smarting under her own
brutality ... poverty is brutalising, she reflected miserably, excusing
herself. It makes you helpless and makes sick people fearful and
hateful. It ought not to be like that. One can't even give way to one's
natural feelings. What ought she to have done? To have spoken gently ...
you see dear ... she could hear women's voices saying it ... my
resources are not unlimited, we must try and think what is the best
thing to be done ... humbug ... they would be feeling just as frightened
just as self-protecting, inside. There were people in books who
shouldered things and got into debt, just for any casual, helpless,
person. But it would have to come on somebody, in the end. What then?
Bustling people with plans ... 'it's no good sitting still waiting for
Providence' ... but that was just what one wanted to avoid ... it had
been wonderful, sometimes in the little room. It was _that_ that had
been outraged. It was as if she had struck a blow.
"I _have_ done something dear."
"_What?_"
"I've sent for Dr. Ashley-Densley."
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"There is our gentleman," said Miss Dear tranquilly just before
midnight. Miriam moved away and stood by the window as the door split
wide and a tall grey-clad figure plunged lightly into the room. Miriam
missed his first questions in her observations of his well-controlled
fatigue and annoyance, his astonishing height and slenderness and the
curious wise softness of his voice. Suddenly she realised that he was
going. He was not going to take anything in hand or do anything. He had
got up from the chair by the bedside and was scribbling something on an
envelope ... no sleep for two nights he said evenly in the soft musical
girlish tones. A prescription ... then he'd be off.
"Do you know Thomas's?" he said colourlessly.
"Do you know Thomas's--the chemist--in Baker Street?" he said casting a
half-glance in her direction as he wrote on.
"I do," said Miriam coldly.
"Would you be afraid to go round there now?"
"What is it you want?" said Miriam acidly.
"Well, if you're not afraid, go to Thomas's, get this made up, give Miss
Dear a dose and if it does not take effect, another in two hours' time."
"You may leave it with me."
"All right. I'll be off. I'll try to look in sometime to-morrow," he
said turning to Miss Dear. "Bye-bye" and he was gone.
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