The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4
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As she did this Miriam figured them in a flash coming down the road to
the house; their young men's talk and arguments, their certainty of
rightness and completeness, their sudden embarrassment and secret anger
with their precipitate rescuer. Mr. Wilson was on his feet again, not
looking at them nor breaking up the circle already made, but again
making his sociable sounds and circular movements with his arms as if to
introduce and distribute them about the room. The husband and wife kept
on a dialogue in strained social voices as if they were bent on showing
that their performance was not dependant on an audience. Miriam averted
her eyes from them, overcome by painful visions of the two at breakfast
or going home after social occasions. The three young men retreated to
the window alcove behind the tea-table one of them becoming Miriam's
neighbour as she sat in the corner near the piano whither she had fled
from the centre of the room when the husband and wife came in.
It was the young man with the important piece of news. He sat bent
forward holding his cup and plate with outstretched arms. His headlong
expression remained unchanged. Wisps of black hair stood eagerly out
from his head and a heavy thatch fell nearly to his eyebrows. "Did
anybody see anything of Mrs. Binks at the station?" asked Alma from her
table. "Oh my dear" she squealed gently as the maid ushered in a little
lady in a straight dress of red flannel frilled with black chiffon at
the neck and wrists, "we were all afraid you weren't coming." "Don't
anybody move"--the deep reedy voice reverberated amongst the standing
figures; the firm compact undulating figure came across the room to
Alma. Its light-footed swiftness and easy certainty filled Miriam with
envy. The envy evaporated during the embracing of Alma and the general
handshaking. The low strong reedy voice went on saying things out into
the silence of the room in a steady complete way. There was something
behind it all that did not show, or showed in the brilliant ease,
something that Miriam did not envy. She tried to discover what it was as
the room settled, leaving Mrs. Binkley on a low chair near to Alma,
taking tea and going on with her monologue, each of her pauses
punctuated by soft appreciative sounds from Alma and little sounds from
Mr. Wilson. She was popular with them. Mr. Wilson sat surveying her. Did
they know how hard she was working? Perhaps they did and admired or even
envied it. But what was it for? Surely she must feel the opposition in
the room? Alma and Mr. Wilson approved and encouraged her exhibition.
She was in their curious league for keeping going high-voiced clever
sayings. So had the husband appeared to be at first. Now he sat silent
with a kind polite expression about his head and figure. But his mouth
was uneasy, he was afraid of something or somebody and was staring at
Mrs. Binkley. The wife sat in a gloomy abstraction smoking a large
cigarette ... she was something like Mrs.