Three millions! : $b or, The way of the world — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Three millions! : $b or, The way of the world
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“If Julia thinks kindly of me now, she would spurn me as an unclean
reptile, if the thought came to her mind.”
“Dick, I must be candid: this thought has occurred to me, but only to
be rejected and cast out as a suggestion of the devil.”
Dr. Bilks winced.
“I need not wonder at it, though I did not think it. Now you understand
me. I must go.”
“No, Dick, you shall not go,” protested Eugene.
“I did not intend to speak of anything but business when I came. I will
not stand in a false position. I will not be suspected of marrying for
money.”
“Now you have stepped upon my ground, Dick,” said Eugene, with a smile.
“I would not marry for three millions--only for love.”
“I know not that Julia would have consented--perhaps it was wrong for
me to mention her name. It is all past now.”
“Not at all. Nothing would have pleased me so well as such a marriage.”
“It cannot be now--at least not till you are married, and John
Hungerford is born.”
“You are cheating yourself, Dick.”
“I will not take a step where my motives can be suspected. I am not
free from suspicion, even in your partial eyes.”
“You are.”
“No--you have suspected me. I have not intended to utter a word to
remove your suspicion. We part, Hungerford.”
“No, Dick.”
“It must be so. I do not blame you. I am still your friend.”
“This is cruel.”
“More cruel to me than to any one else.”
“It is unnecessary.”
“Can I stand by you in these intimate relations while I am accused
of base and unworthy practices? No, Hungerford. If it be the will of
God that I shall be purged of this stain, we shall meet as friends
again; if not, never. I will speak a word to Julia as I go. Good night,
Hungerford.”
“I shall see you to-morrow.”
“I am summoned as a witness at the examination of Ross to-morrow. We
may meet then.”
Dick Birch left the library, and entered the room where the ladies
were. He briefly stated that circumstances had occurred which rendered
it necessary for him to absent himself from the house. He shook hands
with Mrs. Hungerford and with Julia, neither of whom dared to ask him
any questions. He betrayed some emotion as he parted with Julia, and
she could with difficulty repress the tears that struggled in her eyes.
Dick went forth from the mansion he had reared and beautified, like the
wanderers from Eden, sad and disturbed.
“What do you think now, Dr. Bilks?” demanded Eugene in the library, as
the door closed behind the parting friend.
“I hardly know what to think,” replied the doctor.
“The thought which you suggested to me, you perceive, has already
occurred to him.”
“That was the worst feature in the interview. I was not entirely
satisfied with his appearance or his explanation.”
“You were not?” said Eugene, with much surprise.