Julia herself shared the common feeling. What was outside of her own
knowledge and experience was faithfully and enthusiastically delineated
by her mother, to whom there was no person in existence, out of her
own family, like Dr. Bilks. It would have been impossible for Julia,
thoughtful, kind-hearted as she was, to be unmoved by the attentions
bestowed upon her by the physician. He seemed to live for her recovery;
to be studying all the time how he could cast a ray of sunlight across
her path. In her chamber there was always something to remind her
of his devotion--a rare bouquet, a cluster of grapes, a toy, a game,
the newest book, the finest engraving. And all these things were only
the machinery of the physician’s art; only devices to cheat Death of
his intended victim; only offerings on the altar of Hygeia; so they
were interpreted by those who blessed the doctor for the boon of that
precious life.
Julia came down into the drawing-room; she resumed her place in the
family, and everything went on as before the shadow dropped down upon
Pine Hill. Mary Kingman had been the chamber companion of the invalid:
she could not be her drawing-room companion. She declined, not in so
many words, but by her actions, to join the family group gathered once
more in the brilliant apartment. She felt that she did not belong
there. She had come to heal the sick; she had no part or lot in the
joys of that reunited household; only in their sorrows. Her mission was
done.
“Julia, I must leave you to-day,” said she, on the morning of the day
after that on which the invalid had spent an hour in the drawing-room.
“Why must you leave me?”
“I think you do not need me any longer.”
“I shall always need you, Mary.”
“I have been away a month now.”
“But you are not needed at home. Your father is better.”
“I feel that I ought not to stay any longer, unless you need me.”
“I am not so selfish as to say that I absolutely need you, Mary. I
don’t know what mother would have done without you. She was almost worn
out. You have spent your days and nights over me when I could not help
myself. I am sure I shall miss you very much if you go.”
“You sleep well nights now, and I do not think I am really required.”
“I should be very glad to have you stay.”
“I know you would, Julia.”
“Mary, why didn’t you come down into the drawing-room yesterday?” asked
Julia. “Eugene inquired for you.”
Mary’s pale face flushed a little, and she was embarrassed. Her look
was the key to her conduct.
“I could not,” she replied, with some hesitation, for she fully
intended to avoid the topic to which Julia’s remark must inevitably
lead.
“Why not?”
“It was hardly proper for me to do so.”
“Why, Mary?”
“You will not ask me, Julia, to say anything more about it,” pleaded
Mary.
“After all you have done for me,--after the sleepless nights you have
spent at my bedside,--I think you ought to regard me as your friend,
Mary.”
“I do.”