Through the school: The experiences of a mill boy in securing an education
John Stuart Mill · en
After the addresses, the President came down from the pulpit throne and
we stood lined up before him, with the vast audience at our backs. I
could not listen to the words of parting that our mentor gave us, for
I felt every minute that I should tumble back like a stricken ninepin;
bowled over by my insufficient strength. Sweeps of pain, of cold and
heat went through me like differing winds. Slowly, ever so slowly,
the diplomas were handed us, seeming to take a day or more, and every
minute I felt like stopping the solemn service and asking to be allowed
to go back to my seat.
Finally the last of the diplomas were given, we turned our faces to the
congregation, walked nervously back to our seats, and waited for the
exercises to be concluded.
The organ thundered its exultant recessional, the people crowded into
the aisles and intercepted us as we struggled through, seeking out
sweethearts, friends, parents, whose congratulation we sought first.
The missionary was waiting for me near an exit door, anxious for
me, as I saw by her face. I had just shown her my diploma, with its
blue silken bow, when suddenly the Dean tapped me on the shoulder and
politely requested my diploma, saying,
“You may have it again, Mr. Priddy, after you have completed your
deferred examinations!”
_Chapter XXXII. How, Though I was Ready for Service, I was Forestalled
by a New Trouble, and the Very Interesting Plan Which Came Out of it_
Then the reward of the years came to me: I had my whole time to give to
my parish, I had my home in the parsonage and a wife--the “brown-haired
young woman”--to preside over it. Though Evangelical University had
nurtured narrow, dogmatic, and discontented versions of faith in
me, and though the first months of instruction in the Seminary had
witnessed the destruction of these versions of faith, finally had come
the larger world of faith, without narrow bounds, with deeper reaches
and a much brighter sky. Like Burner, I had been called upon to pass
through skeptical valleys, and to climb over high walls which bruised
the spirit, but it was only to climb to the top of a lofty faith, at
last, in which I seemed to behold the world of men, spite of their
common sins, tending towards the central place--God’s garden. I felt
that I could go into the pulpit and preach on themes, which instead
of arousing the hostility of men, as the doctrine of Evangelical
University seemed destined to do, would by their breadth, optimism, and
freedom from Phariseeism win the repentant consent of men. I had gone
into the Seminary tutored by Evangelical University to be afraid to
let the sun shine on religion’s chief doctrines, I had come from the
Seminary believing that the flood of light intensified the beauty of
religion. So, at last, I had the opportunity of testing on community
life this doctrine which comforted me with an inexpressible comfort. I
bent to my work, with my wife at my elbow, as proud of my chance as any