Through the school: The experiences of a mill boy in securing an education
John Stuart Mill · en
The choir, transepts and gallery were soon crowded, almost to
suffocation. The morning sun in trying to break through the windows
into the dimness merely glorified the pictured saints, and prophets,
shepherds and sheep. The gowned organist played a part of the grand
finale of The Pilgrim’s Chorus. The gowned figure of the President
arose and stood silent a second while a wave of reverent stillness
swept through the chapel. Scripture followed hymn, and a simple
prayer was followed by a general confession. Then the organ burst
into a triumphant recessional, and the students noisily crowded down
the aisles into the open air. The day’s work was begun, having had
invoked on it the blessing from the Author of all Truth, and the
Creator of that World which throughout the days and years, has had such
fascination for students and professors, of Science, of Art and Faith.
In the confusion of the multitude of students, most of them strangers
to me, I felt the futility of my social ambitions. In Evangelical
University and in the theological seminary I had been in the midst
of small groups of students, whose names, characteristics and
acquaintance could be compassed in a few short weeks. But the vast
procession of young men which blackened the greensward of the campus
that morning dismayed me. It seemed that mere hand-shaking and saying
to each individual member of it, “I am glad to know you!” would demand
months and months of time. It was a new experience, too, after the
simple democracy in my previous schools, to have those who were my
classmates and college associates, pass me without a word of morning
greeting, without a lift of the eyes.
But that was only the first day!
The second morning, as I sat in the chapel, I chanced to have my
attention attracted by a curious fingering of paper. It was the student
next to me who had some blank sheets of paper in his hands which he
shuffled intermittently and over which he kept passing the ball of his
forefinger. The organ had not ceased its prelude, and the students
had not ceased entering the chapel, so I paid a stricter attention to
the strange recreation of my companion. Though he shuffled his blank
papers with great skill and fingered their surfaces with scientific
regularity, his eyes--wide, staring ones,--were kept fixed on the
President’s pulpit--never once did they turn on my inquisitiveness or
towards the papers.
One of the students then slipped by me and took a vacant seat next to
this shuffler of papers. As soon as he was seated, however, he bent
forward and said, to me,
“Your name’s Priddy, isn’t it? I’m Sanderson, the monitor who keeps the
attendance of this section. By the way, have you met Quarles? Quarles,”
he said to the student who was shuffling the papers, “meet Priddy, your
classmate!” Quarles, without taking his eyes from their fixed stare on
the President’s pulpit, extended me his hand, and said, in a very quiet
voice,
“I’m glad to meet you, Priddy! I’m blind, as you probably know.”