Through the school: The experiences of a mill boy in securing an education
John Stuart Mill · en
During this wait I found that my money was nearly gone. I had fifty
cents on hand for board. I asked a disreputable fellow, near the
Temperance Hotel, where I could get some cheap meals. He pointed to
the next street and told me that they had three-cent meals in some
of the eating-houses there. That evening I indulged in a three-cent
supper. It consisted of a dish of beans, a slice of bread, some
“butter” and a cup of coffee. I went to the same place for breakfast
the next morning and for three cents secured a cup of coffee, a
doughnut, and a dish of stew. That morning a heavy rain began to fall,
and, for the first time, I began to miss the shoes I had left in the
caboose. I had on a suit of good clothes, so that the worn tennis
shoes on my feet were all the more startling; but when the streets
were filled with running brooks of rain through which I was forced to
walk, it was not merely a matter of appearance with me, but a matter
of comfort. On my way to the stock-yards to see what the sales stables
could do for me, my feet were uncomfortably soaked to the skin. The
canvas tops of the shoes were like mops. Every step I took on the
sidewalk was the cause of a soggy, moppish slop. I expected the first
policeman to arrest me as a suspicious character.
I went from stable to stable, and at each one asked in a tremulous
voice if they were about to send any horses to New York or Boston in
the near future, but neither sales nor shipments were being made. I
tried to interest some of the stock-drovers in the cattle yards in my
affairs, but evidently I bored them. I paid another, desperate visit
to the Stockman’s Hotel, but the cattle-buyers would not give me a word
of encouragement towards a pass to New York City.
After this I returned to the heart of the city and began to plan
against absolute starvation. Even with three-cent meals I could not
have a much longer time to eat unless I obtained some more money.
Then I felt the bulge of my nickel-plated watch, in my vest pocket. I
had paid a dollar for it and had used it for two years. It had been
purchased second-hand from a mill friend and had originally cost not
more than three dollars. I hurried to a pawn-broker’s shop and said,
eagerly, as I handed the shopman the weighty time-piece:
“You can have this at your own price--I don’t care how much you offer.
I need the money!”
He tossed the watch in the palm of his hand, then laughed, and as he
handed it back to me he said, impatiently:
“G’wan! It ain’t wuth a flea! I wouldn’t buy dat t’ing fer junk! Git!”
Disconsolately I passed out, with the shopman’s scornful eyes on me,
and the gaze of a burly negro and his wife following me. I had no
sooner reached the sidewalk, however, than the negro came out and said:
“Say, how much yo’ want fo’ dat watch?”