Through the school: The experiences of a mill boy in securing an education — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Through the school: The experiences of a mill boy in securing an education
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“There is a story about here,” went on Tucker, with a smile, “to the
effect that a former student in the Seminary, when discouraged, would
come into the library and pore over these dismal, grewsome pictures,
and persuade himself that his own sufferings were trivial when compared
with the sufferings of these martyrs! I thought I’d come and try it,
too, but it only intensified my own misery!” He shut the great book
with such an explosion that the dust issued from it and gleamed in the
rays of the sun which streamed in through the window.
“But I’d stay on till the end, Tucker,” I persisted. “It’s worth
trying--if you feel that you have a call to preach!”
“I have the call clearly enough,” he insisted, evidently cheered by my
confidence in him. “If I could only persuade others of it, though, I
should feel happier.”
“Probably you’ll have another chance to preach before you expect it,” I
said, in conclusion, and left him with the intention of speaking in his
behalf to some of the students, who might be able to encourage him in a
substantial manner.
I went, quite naturally, to Burner, the upper-classman who had
manifested an interest in my arrival. The big student heard my version
of Tucker’s experience without comment, and then, after a moment of
thought, answered,
“Don’t you bother yourself any further about him. I’ll do all I can.
This is an upper-classman’s work, and it needs, too, some fine work by
the professors. It wouldn’t take much to drive Tucker off. By the way,
don’t mention to him about your conversation with me. I’m sure he’s got
the stuff in him for a preacher. He needs practical encouragement and
he shall have it. You just watch!”
Two days later, while I was in the gymnasium, practising alone with the
basket-ball, Tucker appeared on the floor in his gymnasium clothes,
and, apparently, in a very happy frame of mind. As he stood opposite to
me and caught the ball as I threw it to him, he said,
“Priddy, I’m going to preach on Sunday; another chance to botch it.”
“Good for you,” I declared. “Where are you to preach?”
“For Burner,” Tucker explained; “he wants a Sunday off. Do you know
whether he preaches from manuscript or not, Priddy?”
“I think that he does read--I know he does. I recollect to have heard
him declare that it was only by reading that one could get logical
sequence: his pet hobby.”
Tucker held the ball in the air for a second and sighed, audibly. “That
makes it somewhat easier for me, Priddy. You see, even if I ramble
on with notes, so long as I don’t read my sermon word for word, the
congregation will give me credit for it, and I may have a chance.
Anyway, I mean to keep on, even if I am rebuffed again.”
The following Sunday morning, while Burner was shaving, he said to me,
“I hope that Tucker has a sermon with some logic in it. Anyway, he will
get back encouraged. Deacon Herring will see to that!” He turned his
face from the glass and smiled at me through the lather.
“What do you mean?” I demanded.