Not that Desha suspected Florian’s share in humiliating Viola upon her
wedding-eve. He would have despised his old friend had he suspected
the truth, the same as he despised himself for the folly of an hour by
which he had sundered himself from Viola forever, repenting when all
too late to atone, saying to himself:
“It was for my sake she forgot Florian, for love of me she sinned
against my friend. It was not for me to punish her but rather to
forgive.”
And through the long unhappy night, when he paced the floor of his
room, restless and remorseful, the white, stricken face of Viola, as it
looked when he had upbraided her so harshly, rose before him like an
accusing spirit, until at length love conquered everything, and seizing
a pen, he wrote to her eloquently of his forgiveness and repentance,
urging her to forget last night and let the marriage go on according to
arrangement.
He sent the letter at early dawn, believing and hoping that all would
be well; but when a short while later he opened a damp copy of the
morning paper and read her marriage notice with its glaring head-lines,
it seemed to him as if he should go mad.
He shut himself into his room, raging with pain and humiliation that
would have touched Viola’s heart could she have known it, bitterly as
she had longed for such a result.
It was true that he had told her she might tell the world she had
jilted him, but he had scarcely expected to be taken at his word so
literally as this, having the keen pain of jealousy of his fortunate
rival mixed with the bitter pang of loss.
For awhile he felt as if he could never open that closed door again and
go out to face the gibing world, secretly laughing at his humiliation
by the beautiful, saucy coquette.
Then his native manliness came to his aid, helped by sudden hot
resentment against the girl who had used him so mercilessly in her
desire for revenge.
He vowed that he would tear her from his heart, that no weak woman,
slight and frail, with no weapon but beauty, should spoil the bright
promise of his life with vain regrets gnawing at his heart like canker
in a rose.
“Am I mad that I should cherish
That which leaves but bitter fruit?
I will pluck it from my bosom,
Though my heart be at the root!
“Weakness to be wroth with weakness!
Woman’s pleasure, woman’s pain--
Nature made them blinder motions,
Bounded in a shallower brain.
“Where is comfort? In division
Of the records of the mind?
Can I part her from herself
And love her, as I knew her kind?
“Can I think of her as dead,
And love her for the love she bore?
No; she never loved me truly,
Love is love for evermore!”