He fought fiercely with his sorrow and shame, and went boldly out into
the world again; but it would have been easier to face the cannon of an
opposing army than the curious faces of his friends and acquaintances,
and even of strangers who knew him by sight, and pointed him out to
others as a jilted bridegroom, the latest victim of Miss Van Lew.
It was hard, it was cruel, it was living martyrdom, and Viola’s deepest
thirst for revenge might have been more than satiated could she have
looked into his heart.
So the days came and went, but it was not so easy to put aside the
thought of Viola. The agony of loss tugged at his heart-strings, and
he grew pale and thin and graver and quieter than ever, so that people
could not help seeing that his trouble preyed on his mind. His cousin,
Mrs. Wellford, indeed counseled him angrily to forget Viola, reminding
him how she had always advised him against the match, saying that the
lovely coquette was not worthy of a good man’s love.
“I would prefer not to discuss that subject with you, Ruby,” he
replied, with a sternness that insured her future silence, although he
knew that had he felt free to tell her the circumstances she might have
viewed everything differently.
But his desire to conceal his own blunder and keep his promise to
Viola, that she might give the world any explanation she chose, held
him silent.
“I can not vindicate either Viola or myself, let the world say what it
will,” he concluded.
So the time flew by, and he heard of Viola’s critical illness and then
her sudden widowhood. Perhaps a ray of hope for future days penetrated
the sadness of his heart.
He heard with joy of her convalescence, and said to himself:
“Her twelve months of widowhood will soon pass, and when I come back
to Congress next year--who knows?” not acknowledging to himself that he
was glad Rolfe Maxwell was dead, yet feeling a new spring in life.
He knew that Florian Gay had returned to his studio work with renewed
zest after his long play-spell, and a sudden fancy seized him one day
to call and ask if he desired to have any more sittings on the portrait
begun last year.
“We used to be such good friends, it seems a pity we should drift
apart; though, of course, Florian had terrible provocation to hate
me,” he thought; but pursuing his plan of reconciliation, he presented
himself at the studio.
Florian received him coldly and with reserve, secretly resenting the
visit.
He was working very busily, and he did not conceal from his caller that
it was Viola’s portrait he was finishing by the efficient aid of memory.
“Love, unperceived,
A more ideal artist he than all,
Came, drew his pencil from him, made those eyes
Darker than darkest pansies, and that hair
More black than ash-buds in the front of March.”
Desha gazed long and steadily at the picture, his heart throbbing with
passion; but he made no sign, saying, with pretended calmness: