Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
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He was a proud, reserved man, and it was hard to confess himself in the
wrong, and ask forgiveness of the daughter, who such a little while ago
was a pretty, willful child whom he had scolded for her heartlessness.
But Viola was a woman now, hurried out of girlishness by a great
trouble. She had gained a wonderful dignity that almost awed him, while
her keen reproaches cut him to the heart.
In his anxiety to make her think as well as she could of him under the
cruel circumstances, he put aside pride and reserve, and answered,
humbly:
“Dear child, I was in the wrong, but I did it for your sake. I believed
you had married Maxwell out of pique, while still loving Philip Desha,
and when you fainted dead away on receiving his letter of repentance,
my suspicions were confirmed. When I invented the stories that sent
Rolfe Maxwell away, I did it for your sake, believing you would be
glad to be free again to renew your vows with Desha. If I made a
grave mistake, as your words imply, I can only crave your pardon in
all humility. My judgment was at fault, but my heart was true, and my
remorse since poor Maxwell’s death has been keen and bitter, though so
silent.”
She saw the signs of suffering on his pale grave face, and read them in
his tremulous voice, and her heart was softened.
She cried in anguish:
“Oh, papa, I would give the world to undo the wrong done my dead
husband! to have him back again, and tell him I love him for his
bravery and for all he has suffered for my sake! But that is forever
impossible, and I can only love him dead, and hope to meet him in
another world, and so for the sake of that dear hope, that I may be
good enough to attain future happiness, I must forgive you all you did
in your mistaken zeal for me.”
She gave him her cold little hand, and let him kiss her tear-wet face,
then hurried to her own room, to kneel down and weep the passionate
tears of a vain despair.
“Let me kneel beside the bed,
Let my tears fall down like rain,
While I pray with drooping head:
‘God have pity on my pain!’
When love smiles, how sweet the world!
When love changes, life grows dark;
All its hopes in ruin hurled,
Quenched in gloom, hope’s glimm’ring spark!”
The next day Judge Van Lew called his daughter into the library, and
said, tenderly:
“My dear, I have a little plan to make atonement as far as possible for
the wrong I did you.”
Viola gazed at him wonderingly; and he added:
“You remember, I refused in the heat of anger to permit you to have the
fortune your mother willed you on your marriage, because you had not
complied with the conditions set; but I am now convinced that I did
wrong. Maxwell was a noble young man, after all, and if he were alive
now I would welcome him as a son-in-law.”
“Thank you, papa!” she exclaimed, with a gratified smile; and he added: