The life of Friedrich Nietzsche — Nietzsche — John Shaqi
The life of Friedrich Nietzsche
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Friedrich Nietzsche at last received Lou Salomé's reply: she did not
wish to marry. An unhappy love affair, which had just crossed her life,
left her, she said, without strength to conceive and nourish a new
affection. She therefore refused Nietzsche's offer. But she was able to
sweeten the terms of this refusal: the only thing of which she could
dispose, her friendship, her spiritual affection, she offered.
Friedrich Nietzsche returned at once to Lucerne. He saw Lou Salomé
and pressed her to give a more favourable reply; but the young girl
repeated her refusal and her offer. She was to be present in July at
the Bayreuth festivals, from which Nietzsche wished to abstain. She
promised to rejoin him when they were over and to stay for some weeks
at his side. She would then listen to his teaching, she would confront
the last thought of the master with that of the liberated disciple.
Nietzsche had finally to accept these conditions, these limits which
the young girl placed on their friendship. He advised her to read
one of his books, _Schopenhauer as Educator._ He was always glad to
acknowledge this work of his youth, this hymn to the bravery of a
thinker and to voluntary solitude. "Read it," he said to her, "and you
will be ready to hear me."
Friedrich Nietzsche left Basle and re-entered Germany, desirous of
becoming reconciled to his country. He was, as we know, accustomed to
such absorbing and unexpected desires. A Swiss, whom he had met at
Messina, had praised the beauty of Grunewald, near Berlin; he wished to
settle there, and wrote to Peter Gast, to whom, six weeks earlier, he
had suggested as a summer residence Messina.
He went to visit this Grunewald, which pleased him well enough; but he
saw, on the same occasion, Berlin and a few Berliners, who displeased
him extremely. He perceived that his last books had not been read, and
that his thought was ignored. He was only known as the friend of Paul
Rée, and no doubt his disciple. This he did not like. He went without
delay to spend some weeks in Naumburg, where he dictated the manuscript
of his coming book, _La Gaya Scienza_[4]. To his own people, it seems,
to his mother and to his sister, he spoke discreetly of the new friend.
His gaiety amazed them: they did not discern its cause. They did not
know that their strange Friedrich had in his heart a sentiment, a hope
of happiness, which Lou Salomé had been far from discouraging.