Chance permits us to discover the depths of his soul. He had gone down
to Basle in September, and there Overbeck visited him at his hotel, and
found him in bed, suffering from a sick headache, very low in himself,
and at the same time exceedingly talkative. His excited speech troubled
Overbeck, who was initiated into the mystery of the "Eternal Return."
"One day we shall be here together again in this very place; I again,
as I now am, sick; you again, as now you are, amazed at my words." He
spoke in a low and trembling voice, and his face was troubled--this is
the Nietzsche that Lou Salomé has described. Overbeck listened gently,
but avoided argument of any sort, and left with evil forebodings. Not
until the tragic meeting in Turin in January, 1889, was he again to see
his friend.
Nietzsche merely passed through Basle. His sister, whom he had not
seen since the quarrel of the previous autumn, gave him a rendezvous
at Zürich. It was to announce her marriage, which had taken place in
secret some months before. She was now no longer Fräulein Nietzsche
but Madame Förster, ready to leave for Paraguay with the colonists who
were under the charge of her husband. Recrimination would therefore
have been a waste of time. The step had been taken; Nietzsche did not
discuss it, and did his best to be pleasant once again to the sister
who was lost to him. "My brother," wrote Madame Förster, "seems to be
in a very satisfactory condition. He is bright and charming; we have
been together for six weeks, talking, laughing over everything."
She has left us a record of these days which she supposes--or
pretends to suppose--were happy. Nietzsche came upon the works of one
Freiligrath, a mediocre and popular poet. On the cover of the volume
was inscribed _Thirty--eighth Edition._ With comical solemnity he
exclaimed, "Here, then, we have at last a true German poet. The Germans
buy his verse!" He decided to be a good German for the day, and bought
a copy. He read and was hugely diverted--
"Wüstenkönig ist der Löwe;
Will er sein Gebiet durchfliegen."
(King of deserts is the Hon:
Will he traverse his dominion.)
He declaimed the pompous hemistiches. The Zürich hotel resounded with
his childish laughter as he amused himself improvising verses on every
subject in the manner of a Freiligrath.
"Hullo!" said an old general to the brother and sister. "What is
amusing you two? It makes one jealous to hear you. One wants to laugh
like you."
It is unlikely that Nietzsche had much cause for laughter. One wonders
whether he could contemplate those thirty-eight editions of Freiligrath
without bitterness. During his stay in Zürich he went to the library to
look through the files of the newspapers and reviews for his name. It
would have meant a good deal to him to have read a capable criticism of
his work, to have seen his thought reflected in another's; but no voice
ever answered his labours.