Repine not, my dear friend, at this unexpected return. It is really
more advantageous to us than you can possibly imagine, and indeed,
supposing our contrivances could have effected what our regard to
appearance has induced us to give up, we should have succeeded no
better. Judge what would have been the consequence, had we followed
our inclinations. I should have gone into the country but the very
evening before my mother’s return, should have been sent for them
thence, before I could have possibly given you any notice, and must
consequently have left you in the most dreadful anxiety; we should
have parted just on the eve of our imaginary bliss, and the
disappointment would have been cruelly aggravated by the near approach
of our felicity. Besides, notwithstanding the utmost precautions we
could have taken, it would have been known that we were both in the
country; perhaps too, they might have heard that we were together, it
would have been suspected at least, and that were enough. An imprudent
avidity of the present moment, would have deprived us of every future
resource, and the remorse for having neglected such an act of
benevolence, would have imbittered the remainder of our lives.
Compare then, I beseech you, our present situation with that I have
been describing. First, your absence has been productive of several
good effects. My Argus will not fail to tell my mother, that you have
been but seldom at my cousin’s. She is acquainted with the motives of
your journey; this may probably prove a means of raising you in her
esteem, and how think you, can they conceive it possible that two
young people who have an affection for each other should agree to
separate, at the very time they are left most at liberty? What an
artifice have we employed to destroy suspicions which are but too well
founded! The only stratagem in my opinion consistent with honour, is
the carrying our discretion to such an incredible height, that, what
is in reality the utmost effort of self-denial, may be mistaken for a
token of indifference. How delightful, my dear friend, must a passion
thus concealed be to those who enjoy it! Add to this the pleasing
consciousness of having united two despairing lovers, and contributed
to the happiness of so deserving a couple. You have seen my Fanny;
tell me, is not she a charming girl? Does not she really deserve every
thing you have done for her? Is not she too beautiful and too
unfortunate to remain long unmarried, without some disaster? And do
you think that Claud Anet, whose natural good disposition has
miraculously preserved him during three years service, could have
resolution to continue three years more without becoming as
perfidious, and as wretched as all those of that profession? Instead
of that, they love, and will be united, they are poor, and will be
relieved; they are honest, and will be enabled to continue so; for my
father has promised them a competent provision. What a number of