He desired me to give him the history of our amour, and an account of
the causes which prevented our happiness. I thought that, after the
explicitness of your letter, a partial confidence might be dangerous
and unreasonable. I made it therefore compleat, and he listened to me
with an attention that convinced me of his sincerity. More than once I
saw the tears come into his eyes, while his heart seemed most tenderly
affected: above all, I observed the powerful impressions which the
triumphs of virtue made on his mind; and I please myself in having
raised up for Claud Anet a new protector, no less zealous than your
father. When I had done, there are neither incidents nor adventures,
said he, in what you have related; and yet the catastrophe of a
Romance could not equally affect me; so well is a want of variety
atoned for by sentiments; and of striking actions supplied by
instances of a virtuous behaviour. Yours are such extraordinary minds
that they are not to be guided by common rules: your happiness is not
to be attained in the same manner, nor is it of the same species with
that of others. They seek power and pre-eminence; you require only
tenderness and tranquillity. There is blended with your affections a
virtuous emulation, that elevates both; and you would be less
deserving of each other if you were not mutually in love. But love, he
presumed to say, will one day lose its power (forgive him, Eloisa,
that blasphemous expression, spoken in the ignorance of his heart) the
power of love, said he, will one day be lost, while that of virtue
will remain. Oh my Eloisa! may our virtues but subsist as long as our
love! Heaven will require no more.
In fine, I found that the philosophical inflexibility of his nation
had no influence over the natural humanity of this honest Englishman;
but that his heart was really interested in our difficulties. If
wealth and credit can be useful to us, I believe we have some reason
to depend on his service. But alas! how shall credit or riches operate
to make us happy?