Your lordship’s last letter has affected me in the highest degree with
admiration and gratitude; nor will my friend, who is honoured with
your protection, be less so, when he knows the obligations you would
have conferred on us. The unhappy, alas! only know the value of
benevolent minds. We had before but too many reasons to acknowledge
that of yours, whose heroic virtue will never be forgotten, tho’ after
this it cannot again surprize us.
How fortunate should I think myself to live under the auspices of so
generous a friend, and to reap from your benevolence that happiness
which fortune has denied me. But I see, my Lord, I see, with despair,
your good designs will be frustrated; my cruel destiny will counteract
your friendship; and the delightful prospect of the blessings you
offer to my acceptance, serves only to render their loss more
sensible. You offer a secure and agreeable retreat to two persecuted
lovers; you would render their passion legitimate, their union sacred;
and I know that, under your protection, I could easily elude the
pursuits of my irritated relations. This would compleat our love, but
would it insure our felicity? Ah! no: if you would have Eloisa
contented and happy, give her an asylum yet more secure, an asylum
from shame and repentance. You anticipate our wants; and by an
unparalleled generosity, deprive yourself of your own fortune to
bestow it on us. More wealthy, more honoured by your benevolence than
my own patrimony, I may recover every thing I have lost, and you will
condescend to supply the place of a father. Ah, my Lord, shall I be
worthy of another father when I abandon him whom nature gave me?
This is the source of the reproaches my wounded conscience makes me,
and of those secret pangs that rend my heart.