Here, my dear cousin, I must confess to have seen the most
extraordinary instance of the influence of true wisdom, even over the
most susceptible mind, when we listen to her dictates. At first he
could not comprehend whence arose my disorder, and took it for a real
delirium. But the perfidy of which I accused him, the secret designs
with which I reproached him, Eloisa’s letter which he held in his
hand, and which I incessantly mentioned, at length discovered the
cause of my anger. He smiled, and said to me coldly, you are certainly
out of your senses; do you think me so void of discretion as to fight
with a madman? open your eyes, inconsiderate man, he said, with a
milder tone, is it me that you accuse of betraying you? Something, I
know not what, in his voice and manner of speaking, struck me
immediately with a sense of his innocence and my own folly. His
reproof sunk into my heart, and I had no sooner met his looks than my
suspicions vanished, and I began to think with horror on the
extravagance I had committed. He perceived immediately this change of
sentiment, and taking me by the hand, ’tis well, says he, but if you
had not recollected yourself before my justification, I would never
have seen you more. As it is, and you have recovered your reason, read
that letter, and know for once your friends. I would now have been
excused from reading it, but the ascendant, which so many advantages
had given him over me, made him insist on it with an air of authority;
and, though my suspicions were vanished, I secretly wished to see it.
Think what a situation I was in, on reading a letter that informed me
of the unparalleled obligations I was under, to a man I had so
unworthily treated. I threw myself immediately at his feet, struck
with admiration, affliction and shame: I embraced his knees with the
utmost humiliation and concern, but could not utter a word. He
received my penitence in the same manner as he did the outrage I had
committed; and exacted no other recompense for the pardon he granted,
than my promise that I would never more oppose his designs to serve
me. Yes, he shall act for the future as he pleases: his sublime
generosity is more than human, and it is as impossible to refuse his
favours as it is to withstand the benevolence of the deity.