Overwhelmed with endless sorrow, I throw myself at your feet, madam,
not to shew a repentance that is out of my power; but to expiate an
involuntary crime, by renouncing all that could render life a
blessing. As no human passion ever equalled that inspired by your
celestial daughter, never was there a sacrifice equal to that I am
going to make to the most respectable of mothers; but Eloisa has too
well taught me how to sacrifice happiness to duty; she has too
courageously set me the example, for me, at least, in one instance,
not to imitate her. Were my blood capable of removing your distress, I
would shed it in silence, and complain of being able to give you only
so feeble a proof of my affection; but to break the most sweet, the
most pure, the most sacred bond that ever united two hearts, is alas!
an effort which the whole universe could not oblige me to make, and
which you alone could obtain.
Yes, I promise to live far from her, as long as you require it; I will
abstain from seeing and writing to her; this I swear by your precious
life, so necessary to the preservation of hers. I submit, not without
horror, but without murmuring, to whatever you condescend to enjoin
her and me. I will even add, that her happiness is capable of
alleviating my misery, and that I shall die contented, if you give her
a husband worthy of her. Oh, let him be found! and let him dare to
tell me that his passion for Elois is greater than mine! In vain, may
he have every thing that I want; if he has not my heart, he has
nothing for Eloisa; but I have only this honest and tender heart.
Alas! I have nothing more. Love, which levels all, exalts not the
person, it elevates only the sentiments. Oh, had I dared to listen to
mine for you, how often, in speaking to you, madam, would my lips have
pronounced the tender name of mother?