I affront your honour! I would rather sacrifice my life. Do you
believe it possible that I should mean to injure your honour? Ingrate!
Too well thou knowest that for thy sake I had almost sacrificed my
own. But tell me what is this honour which I have offended? Ask thy
groveling heart, thy indelicate soul. How despicable art thou if thou
hast no honour but that which is unknown to Eloisa! Shall those whose
hearts are one, scruple to share their possessions? Shall he who calls
himself mine refuse my gifts? Since when is it become dishonourable to
receive from those we love? But the man is despised whose wants exceed
his fortune. Despised! by whom? By those abject souls who place their
honour in their wealth, and estimate their virtue by their weight of
gold. But is this the honour of a good man? Is virtue less honourable
because it is poor?
Undoubtedly there are presents which a man of honour ought not to
accept; but I must tell you, those are equally dishonourable to the
person by whom they are offered; and that what may be given with
honour, it cannot be dishonourable to receive: now my heart is so far
from reproaching me with what I did, that it glories in the motive.
Nothing can be more despicable than a man whose love and assiduities
are bought, except the woman by whom they are purchased. But where two
hearts are united, it is so reasonable and just that their fortunes
should be in common, that if I have reserved more than my share, I
think myself indebted to you for the overplus. If the favours of love
are rejected, how shall our hearts express their gratitude?
But, lest you should imagine that in my design to supply your wants I
was inattentive to my own, I will give you an indisputable proof of
the contrary. Know then, that the purse which I now return contains
double the sum it held before, and that I could have redoubled it if I
had pleased. My father gives me a certain allowance, moderate indeed,
but which my mother’s kindness renders it unnecessary for me to touch.
As to my lace and embroidery, they are the produce of my own industry.
It is true, I was not always so rich; but, I know not how, my
attention to a certain fatal passion has of late made me neglect a
thousand little expensive superfluities; which is another reason why I
should dispose of it in this manner: it is but just that you should be
humbled as a punishment for the evil you have caused, and that love
should expiate the crimes he occasions.
But to the point. You say your honour will not suffer you to accept my
gift. If this be true, I have nothing more to say, and am entirely of
opinion that you cannot be too positive in this respect. If therefore
you can prove this to be the case, I desire it may be done clearly,
incontestably, and without evasion; for you know I hate all appearance
of sophistry. You may then return the purse; I will receive it without
complaining, and you shall hear no more of this affair.