I had wrote thus far, and was waiting an opportunity to convey it,
when your last came to my hands from Sion. The melancholy air it
breathes, has lulled my griefs to rest. Now, now am I convinced of
what you observed long ago, concerning that wonderful sympathy between
lovers. Your sorrow is of the calmer, mine of the more passionate
kind, yet though the affection of the mind be the same, it takes its
colour in each from the different channels through which it runs; and
indeed it is but natural, that the greatest misfortunes should produce
the most disquieting anxieties; but why do I talk of misfortunes? They
would be absolutely insupportable. No, be assured, my Eloisa, that the
irresistible decree of heaven has designed us for each other. This is
the first great law we are to obey, and it is the great business of
life, to calm, sooth, and sweeten it while we are here. I see, and
lament it too, that your designs are too vague and inconclusive for
execution. You seem willing to conquer insurmountable difficulties,
while at the same time you are neglecting the only feasible methods:
an enthusiastic idea of honour has supplanted your reason, and your
virtue is become little better than an empty delirium.
If indeed it were possible for you to remain always as young and
beautiful as you are at present, my only wish, my only prayer to
heaven would be, to know of your continual happiness, to see you once
every year, only once, and then spend the rest of my time in viewing
your mansion from afar, and in adoring you among the rocks. But
behold, alas, the inconceivable swiftness of that fate which is never
at rest. It is constantly pursuing, time flies hastily, the
opportunity is irretrievable, and your beauty, even your beauty is
circumscribed by very narrow limits of existence: it must some time or
other decay and wither away like a flower, that fades before it was
gathered. In the mean time, I am consuming my health, youth, strength,
in continual sorrow, and waste away my years in complaining. Think, oh
think, Eloisa, that we have already lost some time; think too that it
will never return, and that the case will be the same with the years
that are to come, if we suffer them to pass by neglected and
unimproved. O fond, mistaken fair! you are laying plans for a futurity
at which you may never arrive, and neglecting the present moments,
which can never be retrieved. You are so anxious, and intent on that
uncertain hereafter, that you forget that in the mean while, our
hearts melt away like snow before the sun. Awake, awake, my dearest
Eloisa, from so fatal a delusion! Leave all your concerted schemes,
the wanton sallies of a fruitful fancy, and determine to be happy.
Come, my only hope, my only joy! to thy fond expecting lover’s arms:
come and re-unite the hitherto divided portions of our existence.
Come, and before heaven, let us solemnly swear to live and die for
each other. You have no need, I am sure, of any encouragement, any