But my dear, my tender friend, why do you cruelly persist in your
disquietude? Wherefore should your repentance exceed your very crime,
and your contempt fall on the object which least of all deserves it,
yourself? Shall the weakness of one unguarded moment be attended with
so black a train of baleful consequences? And are not the very dangers
you have been struggling with, a self-evident demonstration of the
greatness of your virtue? You lose yourself so entirely in the thought
of your defeat, that you have no leisure to consider the triumphs by
which it was preceded. If your trials have been sharper, your
conquests more numerous, and your resistance more frequent, than those
who have escaped, have not you then, I would ask, done more for virtue
than they? If you can find no circumstances to justify, dwell on those
at least, which extenuate and excuse you. I myself am a tolerable
proficient in the art of love, and though my own temper secures me
against its violent emotions, if ere I could have felt such a passion
as yours was, my struggles would have been much fainter, my surrender
more easy, and more dishonourable. Freed as I have been from the
temptation, it reflects no honour on my virtue. You are the chaster of
the two, though perhaps the more unfortunate.
You may perchance be offended that I am so unreserved; but unhappily
your situation makes it necessary. I wish from my soul, what I have
said were not applicable to you; for I detest pernicious maxims, more
than bad actions. [11] If the deed were not already done, and I could
have been so base to write, and you to read and hear these axioms, we
both of us must be numbered in the wretched class of the abandoned.
But as matters stand at present, my duty as your friend requires this
at my hands, and you must give me the hearing, or you are lost, lost
for ever. For you still possess a thousand rare endowments which a
proper esteem of yourself can alone cultivate and preserve. Your real
worth will ever exceed your own opinion of it.