The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
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the prayer, and even much to the purpose, all this I could certify
truly; but that one of these facts was the cause of the other, I ought
not to have attested, because it is what I could not possibly be assured
of. Thus much I may say, that as far as I can recollect what my ideas
were at that time, I was sincerely, and in good earnest a Catholic. Love
of the marvellous is natural to the human heart; my veneration for the
virtuous prelate, and secret pride in having, perhaps, contributed to
the event in question, all helped to seduce me; and certainly, if this
miracle was the effect of ardent prayer, I had a right to claim a share
of the merits.
More than thirty years after, when I published the ‘Lettres de
la Montagne’, M. Feron (I know not by what means) discovered this
attestation, and made use of it in his paper. I must confess the
discovery was very critically timed, and appeared very diverting, even
to me.
I was destined to be the outcast of every condition; for notwithstanding
M. Gatier gave the most favorable account he possibly could of my
studies, they plainly saw the improvement I received bore no proportion
to the pains taken to instruct me, which was no encouragement to
continue them: the bishop and superior, therefore, were disheartened,
and I was sent back to Madam de Warens, as a subject not even fit to
make a priest of; but as they allowed, at the same time, that I was
a tolerably good lad, and far from being vicious, this account
counterbalanced the former, and determined her not to abandon me.