The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
It is very singular that my imagination never rises so high as when my
situation is least agreeable or cheerful. When everything smiles around
me, I am least amused; my heart cannot confine itself to realities,
cannot embellish, but must create. Real objects strike me as they really
are, my imagination can only decorate ideal ones. If I would paint the
spring, it must be in winter; if describe a beautiful landscape, it must
be while surrounded with walls; and I have said a hundred times, that
were I confined in the Bastille, I could draw the most enchanting
picture of liberty. On my departure from Lyons, I saw nothing but an
agreeable future, the content I now with reason enjoyed was as great
as my discontent had been at leaving Paris, notwithstanding, I had not
during this journey any of those delightful reveries I then enjoyed. My
mind was serene, and that was all; I drew near the excellent friend
I was going to see, my heart overflowing with tenderness, enjoying in
advance, but without intoxication, the pleasure of living near her; I
had always expected this, and it was as if nothing new had happened.
Meantime, I was anxious about the employment Madam de Warens had
procured me, as if that alone had been material. My ideas were calm and
peaceable, not ravishing and celestial; every object struck my sight
in its natural form; I observed the surrounding landscape, remarked
the trees, the houses, the springs, deliberated on the cross-roads, was
fearful of losing myself, yet did not do so; in a word, I was no longer
in the empyrean, but precisely where I found myself, or sometimes
perhaps at the end of my journey, never farther.
I am in recounting my travels, as I was in making them, loath to arrive
at the conclusion. My heart beat with joy as I approached my dear Madam
de Warens, but I went no faster on that account. I love to walk at
my ease, and stop at leisure; a strolling life is necessary to me:
travelling on foot, in a fine country, with fine weather and having an
agreeable object to terminate my journey, is the manner of living of all
others most suited to my taste.