The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
I was, therefore, an ardent Frenchman; this rendered me a politician,
and I attended in the public square, amid a throng of news-mongers, the
arrival of the post, and, sillier than the ass in the fable, was very
uneasy to know whose packsaddle I should next have the honor to carry,
for it was then supposed we should belong to France, and that
Savoy would be exchanged for Milan. I must confess, however, that I
experienced some uneasiness, for had this war terminated unfortunately
for the allies, the pension of Madam de Warens would have been in a
dangerous situation; nevertheless, I had great confidence in my good
friends, the French, and for once (in spite of the surprise of M.
de Broglio) my confidence was not ill-founded--thanks to the King of
Sardinia, whom I had never thought of.
While we were fighting in Italy, they were singing in France: the operas
of Rameau began to make a noise there, and once more raise the credit
of his theoretic works, which, from their obscurity, were within the
compass of very few understandings. By chance I heard of his ‘Treatise
on Harmony’, and had no rest till I purchased it. By another chance
I fell sick; my illness was inflammatory, short and violent, but my
convalescence was tedious, for I was unable to go abroad for a whole
month. During this time I eagerly ran over my Treatise on Harmony, but
it was so long, so diffuse, and so badly disposed, that I found it would
require a considerable time to unravel it: accordingly I suspended my
inclination, and recreated my sight with music.
The cantatas of Bernier were what I principally exercised myself with.
These were never out of my mind; I learned four or five by heart, and
among the rest, ‘The Sleeping Cupids’, which I have never seen since
that time, though I still retain it almost entirely; as well as ‘Cupid
Stung by a Bee’, a very pretty cantata by Clerambault, which I learned
about the same time.
To complete me, there arrived a young organist from Valdoste, called the
Abbe Palais, a good musician and an agreeable companion, who performed
very well on the harpsichord; I got acquainted with him, and we soon
became inseparable. He had been brought up by an Italian monk, who was
a capital organist. He explained to me his principles of music, which I
compared with Rameau; my head was filled with accompaniments, concords
and harmony, but as it was necessary to accustom the ear to all this,
I proposed to Madam de Warens having a little concert once a month, to
which she consented.