The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
By inconceivable care and vigilance, she saved my life; and I am
convinced she alone could have done this. I have little faith in the
skill of physicians, but depend greatly on the assistance of real
friends, and am persuaded that being easy in those particulars on which
our happiness depends, is more salutary than any other application. If
there is a sensation in life peculiarly delightful, we experienced it
in being restored to each other; our mutual attachment did not increase,
for that was impossible, but it became, I know not how, more exquisitely
tender, fresh softness being added to its former simplicity. I became
in a manner her work; we got into the habit, though without design, of
being continually with each other, and enjoying, in some measure, our
whole existence together, feeling reciprocally that we were not
only necessary, but entirely sufficient for each other’s happiness.
Accustomed to think of no subject foreign to ourselves, our happiness
and all our desires were confined to that pleasing and singular union,
which, perhaps, had no equal, which is not, as I have before observed,
love, but a sentiment inexpressibly more intimate, neither depending
on the senses, age, nor figure, but an assemblage of every endearing
sensation that composes our rational existence and which can cease only
with our being.
How was it that this delightful crisis did not secure our mutual
felicity for the remainder of her life and mine? I have the consoling
conviction that it was not my fault; nay, I am persuaded, she did not
wilfully destroy it; the invincible peculiarity of my disposition was
doomed soon to regain its empire; but this fatal return was not suddenly
accomplished, there was, thank Heaven, a short but precious interval,
that did not conclude by my fault, and which I cannot reproach myself
with having employed amiss.