The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
My impatience to arrive at Chambery had made me use more diligence than
I meant to do. I had sent a letter from Valence, mentioning the day and
hour I should arrive, but I had gained half a day on this calculation,
which time I passed at Chaparillan, that I might arrive exactly at the
time I mentioned. I wished to enjoy to its full extent the pleasure
of seeing her, and preferred deferring this happiness a little, that
expectancy might increase the value of it. This precaution had always
succeeded; hitherto my arrival had caused a little holiday; I expected
no less this time, and these preparations, so dear to me, would have
been well worth the trouble of contriving them.
I arrived then exactly at the hour, and while at a considerable
distance, looked forward with an expectancy of seeing her on the road to
meet me. The beating of my heart increased as I drew near the house; at
length I arrived, quite out of breath; for I had left my chaise in the
town. I see no one in the garden, at the door, or at the windows; I am
seized with terror, fearful that some accident has happened. I enter;
all is quiet; the laborers are eating their luncheon in the kitchen, and
far from observing any preparation, the servants seem surprised to see
me, not knowing I was expected. I go up-stairs, at length see her!--that
dear friend! so tenderly, truly, and entirely beloved. I instantly ran
towards her, and threw myself at her feet. “Ah! child!” said she, “art
thou returned then!” embracing me at the same time. “Have you had a good
journey? How do you do?” This reception amused me for some moments. I
then asked, whether she had received my letter? she answered “Yes.”--“I
should have thought not,” replied I; and the information concluded
there. A young man was with her at this time. I recollected having
seen him in the house before my departure, but at present he seemed
established there; in short, he was so; I found my place already
supplied!
This young man came from the country of Vaud; his father, named
Vintzenried, was keeper of the prison, or, as he expressed himself,
Captain of the Castle of Chillon. This son of the captain was a
journeyman peruke-maker, and gained his living in that capacity when he
first presented himself to Madam de Warens, who received him kindly, as
she did all comers, particularly those from her own country. He was a
tall, fair, silly youth; well enough made, with an unmeaning face, and a
mind of the same description, speaking always like the beau in a comedy,
and mingling the manners and customs of his former situation with a long
history of his gallantry and success; naming, according to his account,
not above half the marchionesses who had favored him and pretending
never to have dressed the head of a pretty woman, without having
likewise decorated her husband’s; vain, foolish, ignorant and insolent;
such was the worthy substitute taken in my absence, and the companion
offered me on my return!