The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
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and hoped, that when she knew me better, she would not regret having
procured me that honor. The President de Lamoignon, very intimate in the
family, dined there also. He, as well as Madam de Broglie, was a master
of all the modish and fashionable small talk jargon of Paris. Poor Jean
Jacques was unable to make a figure in this way. I had sense enough not
to pretend to it, and was silent. Happy would it have been for me, had
I always possessed the same wisdom; I should not be in the abyss into
which I am now fallen. I was vexed at my own stupidity, and at being
unable to justify to Madam de Broglie what she had done in my favor.
After dinner I thought of my ordinary resource. I had in my pocket an
epistle in verse, written to Parisot during my residence at Lyons. This
fragment was not without some fire, which I increased by my manner of
reading, and made them all three shed tears. Whether it was vanity, or
really the truth, I thought the eyes of Madam de Broglie seemed to say
to her mother: “Well, mamma, was I wrong in telling you this man was
fitter to dine with us than with your women?” Until then my heart had
been rather burdened, but after this revenge I felt myself satisfied.
Madam de Broglie, carrying her favorable opinion of me rather too
far, thought I should immediately acquire fame in Paris, and become
a favorite with fine ladies. To guide my inexperience she gave me the
confessions of the Count de -----. “This book,” said she, “is a Mentor,
of which you will stand in need in the great world. You will do well by
sometimes consulting it.” I kept the book upwards of twenty years with
a sentiment of gratitude to her from whose hand I had received it,
although I frequently laughed at the opinion the lady seemed to have
of my merit in gallantry. From the moment I had read the work, I was
desirous of acquiring the friendship of the author. My inclination led
me right; he is the only real friend I ever possessed amongst men of
letters.
[I have so long been of the same opinion, and so perfectly convinced
of its being well founded, that since my return to Paris I confided
to him the manuscript of my confessions. The suspicious J. J.
never suspected perfidy and falsehood until he had been their
victim.]
From this time I thought I might depend on the services of Madam the
Baroness of Beuzenval, and the Marchioness of Broglie, and that they
would not long leave me without resource. In this I was not deceived.
But I must now speak of my first visit to Madam Dupin, which produced
more lasting consequences.