The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
I acknowledge I did not neglect any opportunity of making myself known;
but I never sought one improperly, and in serving well I thought I had a
right to aspire to the natural return for essential services; the esteem
of those capable of judging of, and rewarding them. I will not say
whether or not my exactness in discharging the duties of my employment
was a just subject of complaint from the ambassador; but I cannot
refrain from declaring that it was the sole grievance he ever mentioned
previous to our separation.
His house, which he had never put on a good footing, was constantly
filled with rabble; the French were ill-treated in it, and the
ascendancy was given to the Italians; of these even, the more honest
part, they who had long been in the service of the embassy, were
indecently discharged, his first gentleman in particular, whom he had
taken from the Comte de Froulay, and who, if I remember right, was
called Comte de Peati, or something very like that name. The second
gentleman, chosen by M. de Montaigu, was an outlaw highwayman from
Mantua, called Dominic Vitali, to whom the ambassador intrusted the
care of his house, and who had by means of flattery and sordid economy,
obtained his confidence, and became his favorite to the great prejudice
of the few honest people he still had about him, and of the secretary
who was at their head. The countenance of an upright man always gives
inquietude to knaves. Nothing more was necessary to make Vitali conceive
a hatred against me: but for this sentiment there was still another
cause which rendered it more cruel. Of this I must give an account, that
I may be condemned if I am found in the wrong.