The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
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One day I spoke of it at Le Blond’s; “If you are so desirous,” said he,
“to see those little girls, it will be an easy matter to satisfy your
wishes. I am one of the administrators of the house, I will give you a
collation with them.” I did not let him rest until he had fulfilled his
promise. In entering the saloon, which contained these beauties I so
much sighed to see, I felt a trembling of love which I had never before
experienced. M. le Blond presented to me one after the other, these
celebrated female singers, of whom the names and voices were all
with which I was acquainted. Come, Sophia,--she was horrid. Come,
Cattina,--she had but one eye. Come, Bettina,--the small-pox had
entirely disfigured her. Scarcely one of them was without some striking
defect.
Le Blond laughed at my surprise; however, two or three of them appeared
tolerable; these never sung but in the choruses; I was almost in
despair. During the collation we endeavored to excite them, and they
soon became enlivened; ugliness does not exclude the graces, and I found
they possessed them. I said to myself, they cannot sing in this manner
without intelligence and sensibility, they must have both; in fine, my
manner of seeing them changed to such a degree that I left the house
almost in love with each of these ugly faces. I had scarcely courage
enough to return to vespers. But after having seen the girls, the danger
was lessened. I still found their singing delightful; and their
voices so much embellished their persons that, in spite of my eyes, I
obstinately continued to think them beautiful.
Music in Italy is accompanied with so trifling an expense, that it is
not worth while for such as have a taste for it to deny themselves the
pleasure it affords. I hired a harpsichord, and, for half a crown, I had
at my apartment four or five symphonists, with whom I practised once a
week in executing such airs, etc., as had given me most pleasure at the
opera. I also had some symphonies performed from my ‘Muses Galantes’.
Whether these pleased the performers, or the ballet-master of St. John
Chrysostom wished to flatter me, he desired to have two of them; and I
had afterwards the pleasure of hearing these executed by that admirable
orchestra. They were danced to by a little Bettina, pretty and amiable,
and kept by a Spaniard, M. Fagoaga, a friend of ours with whom we often
went to spend the evening. But apropos of girls of easy virtue: it
is not in Venice that a man abstains from them. Have you nothing to
confess, somebody will ask me, upon this subject? Yes: I have something
to say upon it, and I will proceed to the confession with the same
ingenuousness with which I have made my former ones.