Artists -- Fiction; Fantasy fiction; London (England) -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction; Portraits -- Fiction
At first, a musical, broken murmur--then another,
that mixes with it. As one rises, the other falls;
then both together, or as the threads of a cascade
cross and intersect in mid-air. Then a third sound,
a sound with a musical ring that makes my heart
leap with joy--a sound that comes back to me now,
when in the early mornings of summer, I hear,
through the window of this room opened outwards
to let in the morning air, the voice of the little brown
bird that springs high into the blue heaven, and
unpacks its tiny heart in a flood of song. And
then I think to myself that _that_ is the language in
which I too should have laughed, had laughter been
possible to me.
For what I heard then from behind the easel I
stood on as the young artist painted me was the
laughter of Maddalena Raimondi, from whom he
was working; whom I may describe myself as being.
For ought not the name written on the frame below
me to be hers also, with the date of her birth and
death? Are not my eyes that I see with now hers?
Is not the nostril with the lambent curve--that is
what a celebrated Art-Critic has called it--hers,
and the little sea-shell ear hers that heard you say,
but now, that my original cannot have been more
than twenty?...
More than twenty! No, indeed!--for in those
days a girl of twenty was a woman. And the girl
that one day a little later came round at a signal
from behind the panel, to see the portrait that I now
knew had received its last touch from its maker,
was one who at eighteen had been threatened,
driven, goaded into harness with an old Devil of
high rank, to whom she had been affianced in her
babyhood; and who is now, we may hope, in his
proper Hell, as God has appointed. Yet it may
well be he is among the Saints; for his wealth was
great, and he gave freely to Holy Church. But to
Maddalena, that was myself--for was I not
she?--he was a Devil incarnate.
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