The longer I live the more remarkable it seems to me, how limited is the
field in which any of us does original thinking. One of my friends is
an exceedingly able physician. Within his specialty he has been
startlingly radical. His cures, however, are so amazing that his
colleagues are accepting his methods. But in all other departments of
thought he is hopelessly conservative. Another acquaintance, a painter,
is a daring innovator in his use of colors, but has unquestioningly
accepted all those beliefs which Max Nordau has called "The Conventional
Lies of our Civilization." To one subject we seem to give all our
mental energy, all our powers of original thinking, in other matters we
believe what we are taught. It was so with Ann. Her specialty was
bacteriology, her ideas on marriage she had inherited.
Her mother, whom I afterwards came to know and respect, was a remarkable
woman. Mr. Barton, after a fairly upright younger life, had deserted
her at thirty-five. Although neither Ann nor Mrs. Barton, ever spoke
much of him, I learned that he had died, a hopeless drunkard. At first
the mother had supported the children by nursing and sewing among the
families of her Vermont neighbors. And everywhere, once she had entered
the privacy of a household, she found the same repellent pretense, a
carefully preserved outward show of harmony and affection, an inside
reality of petty quarrels and discord. Often she found situations of
more abhorrent tragedy, jealousy, hatred and strange passions, women
heartbroken for lack of love, bodily broken from an excess of
child-bearing. From considering her own misfortunes a horrible
exception, she came to believe such sorrows were pitifully common. And
everywhere women seemed to be the victims. However unhappy a man’s
married life might be, he found release in his work. To the woman, home
was everything, if it went wrong, all life was awry.
By chance apparently, but I suppose inevitably, she had come in contact
with some of the leaders of the early "Woman’s Rights Movement." She
corresponded with them ardently and at length came west to Cincinnati,
having decided that she needed education. She supported herself and her
children by needle-work and spent half the nights, after they were abed,
over schoolbooks. She had to begin at the beginning. By herself, in
her garret, she followed the grammar school course, crowding the work
which takes a child two or three years, into the half nights of one.
Gradually she worked her way up to the position of forewoman in a large
embroidery establishment and so was able to send her children through
high school, the older ones to college. But her health had given out
before Ann’s turn came.
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