A Marriage in High Life, Volume IScott, Lady (Caroline Lucy)
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A Marriage in High Life, Volume I
Scott, Lady (Caroline Lucy)
Great Britain -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
Fitzhenry’s letter fell from her hands, and almost hysteric sobs escaped
from her heart. “What have I done to be so cruelly used, so scorned, so
upbraided!” she could not help ejaculating; and again she seized the
fatal letter. “He despises me for having trusted him; he even reproaches
me for that, in which he alone is to blame. She would leave him; leave
those paltry honours which he thought had been her object; leave him
that wealth which had been the motive (she could no longer doubt it) of
her having been sought in marriage by him; and with the vehemence of
indignant feeling, she directly seized on a pen, in order to demand an
immediate and total separation.
But scarcely had she written the first word, when, with the natural
timidity of a young girl, she shrunk from the responsibility and
_enterprise_ of so desperate a step, and from all the publicity which
she would, by it, draw on herself. She laid down her pen; pressed, with
both hands, her throbbing temples, as if to quiet their agitated
pulsations; and then, returning to the fatal letter, she perused it
again and again, till gradually her most angry feelings were calmed. She
_could_ not curse him—_would_ not upbraid him. His language to her,
though harsh, was so open, so honourable! and then, with the happy
buoyancy of youth, and of an innocent, unbroken mind—”I will make him
love me yet,” she thought—”I will so consult his wishes in every thing;
so play my hard part, that he shall see I am not the mere child, the
worldly insensible fool he thinks me; he must in time love me, and we
shall still be happy.”
This was what her _feelings_ dictated; and this line of conduct she told
herself her duty to her parents required of her. She would not break
their hearts by letting them know how they had been deceived; but, for
their sakes, she would submit to her fate.
Happy in having thus reconciled her duties to her inclinations, she
could not help picturing to herself _that_ future to which, with such
fortunate credulity, she fondly looked, when she should have overcome
her husband’s unfavourable opinion of her, and won his affections; and,
in indulging such flattering dreams, Emmeline sat some time lost in
thought, till roused by the sound of hurried steps in the adjoining
room. That room was Lord Fitzhenry’s.
The drawing-room opened into a gallery, the first door in which, was
that of Emmeline’s dressing-room; her bedroom was beyond; and beyond
that again, but, having no communication with Emmeline’s apartment, was
Lord Fitzhenry’s; it had been his when a boy; and that now allotted to
Emmeline had been his father’s.
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