A Marriage in High Life, Volume IScott, Lady (Caroline Lucy)
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A Marriage in High Life, Volume I
Scott, Lady (Caroline Lucy)
Great Britain -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
peculiar circumstances, or duty of some sort, are drawn into such
amusements, when from natural disposition and taste they may be
particularly little suited to enjoy them.
Emmeline’s looks, health, even temper, all seemed to suffer from the
life she now led. Often, after an evening of apparent gaiety, on her
return home, she was so agitated, and so ill, that many a night it was
only by laudanum that she obtained rest. Jenkins repeatedly observed how
“My Lady” was changed; that she never now seemed to know her own mind;
that she would often dress for an evening’s amusement, and then, when
the time came, dismiss her carriage, and flinging herself, in all her
finery, on her bed, would cry bitterly; till, like a child, she fell
asleep from mere fatigue; and then, next morning, she would laugh at
what she called her nervous folly, and begin again her life of hurry and
laborious amusement.
But poor Emmeline, made for better things, felt humbled at herself. Was
this the life that a rational, accountable, immortal being should lead?
Alas! was this the end of all those dreams of happiness which illume the
mind, and warm the heart of youth? Worn out in body and spirits,
Emmeline longed for Arlingford and quiet; and looked forward with
something like pleasure to Easter, when she concluded Fitzhenry would
propose going there.
Amid all those who now buzzed and fluttered around her, one friend
always followed her steps with interest, one friend she always met with
real pleasure. That friend was Pelham. Although he never, since the
conversation at Arlingford, had in the most distant manner alluded to
the estrangement between her and her husband, yet she could plainly
perceive, that he was well aware of their real situation; and she could
not help also observing, that, of late, Pelham and Fitzhenry were less
cordial together than formerly, although both seemed still anxious, when
they met, to carry on the farce of friendship. But Pelham came much less
often to their house than he used to do, and generally at those hours
when Fitzhenry was most likely to be from home. This Emmeline every way
regretted, she always had felt as if he was a link between them, and she
had even vaguely imagined that he might some day have been the means of
uniting them; and, besides the dispiriting conviction that thus, one by
one, every hope to which she clung gave way, she could not help feeling
painfully aware that it was Pelham’s partiality to her, which had
estranged her husband from him.
One evening at Almacks, Lady Saville, with whom she had gone, being
engaged dancing, Emmeline had sought a refuge from the heat and crowd in
the tea-room, and Pelham had followed her. Half serious, half jesting,
he was attacking her upon the life she now led, and upon the
impossibility of ever seeing her quietly, and the eternal hurry of
pleasure and spirits in which he always found her.
“Why I only do like others,” said Emmeline, with forced gaiety.
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