But open wide my lips--thus--drink it in; Turn up my face to the sweet evening sky (What royal wealth of scarlet on the blue So tender toned, you’d almost think it green) And stretch my hands out--so--to grasp it tight. Ha, ha! ’tis sweet awhile to cheat the Fates, And be as happy as another man. The sun works in my veins like wine, like wine! ’Tis a fair world: if dark, indeed, with woe, Yet having hope and hint of such a joy, That a man, winning, well might turn aside, Careless of Heaven.... O enough; I turn From the sun’s light, or haply I shall hope. I have hoped enough; I would not hope again: ’Tis hope that is most cruel. Tom, my friend, You very sorry philosophic fool; ’Tis you, I think, that bid me be resign’d, Trust, and be thankful. Out on you! Resign’d? I’m not resign’d, not patient, not school’d in To take my starveling’s portion and pretend I’m grateful for it. I want all, all, all; I’ve appetite for all. I want the best: Love, beauty, sunlight, nameless joy of life. There’s too much patience in the world, I think. We have grown base with crooking of the knee. Mankind--say--God has bidden to a feast; The board is spread, and groans with cates and drinks; In troop the guests; each man with appetite Keen-whetted with expectance. In they troop, Struggle for seats, jostle and push and seize. What’s this? what’s this? There are not seats for all! Some men must stand without the gates; and some Must linger by the table, ill-supplied With broken meats. One man gets meat for two, The while another hungers. If I stand Without the portals, seeing others eat Where I had thought to satiate the pangs Of mine own hunger; shall I then come forth When all is done, and drink my Lord’s good health In my Lord’s water? Shall I not rather turn And curse him, curse him for a niggard host? O, I have hungered, hungered, through the years, Till appetite grows craving, then disease; I am starved, wither’d, shrivelled. Peace, O peace! This rage is idle; what avails to curse The nameless forces, the vast silences That work in all things. This time is the third, I wrought before in heat, stung mad with pain, Blind, scarcely understanding; now I know What thing I do. There was a woman once; Deep eyes she had, white hands, a subtle smile, Soft speaking tones: she did not break my heart, Yet haply had her heart been otherwise Mine had not now been broken. Yet, who knows? My life was jarring discord from the first: Tho’ here and there brief hints of melody, Of melody unutterable, clove the air.