"A Modern Hercules," the Tale of a SculptressWinstock, Melvin G.
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"A Modern Hercules," the Tale of a Sculptress
Winstock, Melvin G.
American fiction -- 19th century
The preacher sat alone in his study, a prey to many conflicting
emotions. He had read all the journalistic comments on his sermon,
and was filled with mighty discontent. For months he had known the
woman he condemned, and in his inner being there had been aroused for
her, a strange interest. To him, she had unfolded many of her artistic
dreams, but he did not comprehend, for he had been nurtured in a narrow
school, and had embraced in his smooth and successful career, but few
of fierce experiences. Nor was he completely assured of the sincerity
of his motive. A dim, shadowy belief was slowly forcing its way through
his consciousness that he had spoken for other purposes than the mere
desire to uplift and purify public taste. He had learned to realize,
inconsistent as it may seem, that the woman was really noble of heart
and character, but his education and environment made him believe that
she was debasing the noble gifts with which Nature had endowed her, and
he was preaching as much to the individual woman as he had apparently
been preaching to the public mind. The complex nature of his attitude
to the great question troubled him, and a furrowed brow and anxious
eye told a tale of mental agony. Now that he had spoken, he was filled
with a grave doubt as to the righteousness of his conduct, and he was
paying the penalty of all men who are sensitively moulded. Then the
thought came to him that he was using his pulpit, not for mankind but
for himself, and he questioned his right to such a course of action. He
could not, and would not, deny to himself that the artist possessed for
him an enormous attraction. A vague dream had often come to him that
he could breathe into her soul nobler and purer dreams, but he put it
away each time with a weaker struggle against the passion that slowly
made its inroads into his soul. She was a Bohemian. She broke all links
in the chain of custom and established precedent. She exhibited a
reckless freedom in the comradeship of men, that maddened and frenzied
him, yet he was speechless. He would crush this out of her, drive her
from this insane, voluptuous life, and uplift her to his higher sphere,
where her true nobility of character might be exercised, freed from
the Bacchanalian influences of her mad life. Gradually, as he thought,
he was ashamed to think how much of personal longing had crept into
a sermon which should have been delivered in the honest work of his
sacred profession.
He awoke from his fevered self-examination, and buttoning his great
coat around him, went out upon his daily visits to the poor, for,
though he was accounted a great and fashionable preacher, he stole
out daily to haunts where misery dwelt, and the greater part of a
magnificent salary went annually to places unknown to organized and
official charity, and he was almost afraid that people would find it
out!
CHAPTER V.
SATAN REBUKING SIN.
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