"So much time elapsed between my letter and your answer, that
there can have been no inconsiderate haste on your part. You
have reflected upon all that required reflection, and therefore
there is scarcely any need of my express declaration that with
the breaking of your troth to Otto every tie between yourself
and myself and every member of my family, is severed forever.
How you justify yourself in casting a doubt upon Otto's
affection for you I cannot tell; at all events, you cannot
doubt his honour. _A Dönninghausen keeps his word._ And Otto
still feels himself bound, as he has repeatedly told me. I
thought you, too, a genuine child of my house; but you are only
the child of your mother, the first, the only Dönninghausen who
ever deviated from the paths of duty and honour. Otto will
write to you. If he succeeds in convincing and persuading you,
you shall still find me inclined to forgive; but decide
quickly, or this is the last word you will receive from your
grandfather,
"JOHANN FREIHERR VON DÖNNINGHAUSEN."
This was too much! Johanna folded the letter again with trembling hands.
Her mother, the patient sufferer, and she herself, who surely had never
'sought her own,' were disgraced and exiled, while Otto was looked upon
as the genuine Dönninghausen who keeps his word, and Magelone as one of
the blameless ones who have never strayed from the true path. Anger and
pride for a moment thrust pain into the background. She would be final
also, as her grandfather had been,--would prove to herself thus that she
was of his blood.
She went to the open window and looked out. On the other side of the
wall that bounded the little street lay a garden with fruit-trees and
beds of vegetables. It was late in the afternoon, and raining. From the
low clouds came the 'sound of vernal showers' filling the air and
rustling low among the tree-tops; a mingled fragrance of herbs, flowers,
and wet earth ascended to the window, and under the influence of the
murmuring sound and the scent-laden air her tormenting reflections faded
into dreamy revery. From the misty veil of the rain came trooping, at
first vaguely, but in ever-increasing distinctness, forms and
pictures,--the past and the present, the real and the unreal, blending
together. When the light was brought, Johanna awoke as from a deep
sleep.
And as she awoke she found herself back again in the midst of the old
life. Each throb of her heart brought with it a dull pain, a constant
grief. She saw with pitiless distinctness what she had lost. Anxiety for
Lisbeth oppressed her. And yet everything was changed! The spell that
had fettered her since that unhappy morning in the forest was broken,
and she looked beyond herself out into the eternal beauty of life, which
is independent of all individual happiness or misery.
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