Unquestionably the first feeling which arose in her mind, on seeing what
she had seen from the window of the church, was one of jealousy. But she
combated it vigorously; and if she did not succeed in altogether
conquering it,--that fiend being, by the nature of not to be vanquished
so by one single effort, however valorous--at least put it to the rout
for the present. She had known all along that Ludovico frequently saw La
Bianca. She knew that he would meet her at the ball; and, doubtless, the
object of their expedition this morning was, as the friar had suggested,
to show the stranger the celebrated Pineta. Having thus, in some
measure, tranquillized her heart, she began to think how lovely the
forest must be on that fine spring morning; how much she, too, should
like to see it; how good an opportunity the present was of doing so.
Perhaps, too, there was some little anticipation of the slight
punishment to be inflicted on her lover, when he should be told that she
had visited the Pineta alone at the very time when he had been in her
immediate vicinity engaged in showing it to another.
And with these thoughts in her head, she made her inquiries, and started
on her way. But before she had walked many steps, other thoughts began
to present themselves to her mind. How did she know how far they had
gone from the farmhouse? Might they not still be in the immediate
neighbourhood of it? Might she not, very probably, fall in with them?
And would not that be exceedingly disagreeable? Would she not have all
the appearance of having followed them purposely from motives of
jealousy? Would not her presence be unwelcome? Would there not be
something of indelicacy even in thus following one who evidently
preferred being with another?
These considerations sufficed to produce the change in her purpose, and
in the direction towards which she turned her steps, that has been
mentioned. So she returned by the path, which has been described, into
the road, and proceeded along it on her return to the city. She did not
trip along as briskly and alertly as she had done in coming thither; but
walked slowly and pensively with her eyes on the ground. She was thus a
good deal longer in returning than in going. And when she had reached
the immediate neighbourhood of the city, she turned aside before
entering the gate, into a sort of promenade under some trees near the
city wall, and sat down on one of the stone benches there to think a
little.
And presently; as she was busy thinking, she was startled into much
displeasure against herself by discovering that two large utterly
unauthorised tears were running down her cheeks.
What was the meaning of that? Surely she was not jealous still, after
all the good reasons for not being so, that she had so conclusively
pointed out to herself?
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