to my persecutions, and he advised me to go and see Elder Cole. I told him he was not at home, and I knew not what to do. I still continued my work and did not go home; it was not the place for me, as my parents were not spiritual minded, and in my weak state I felt I could not bear opposition, and I hated sin so I could not contend, for a child of contention is a child of hell. On Sunday morning, Nov. 22d, 1840, while I was conversing with a very pious lady that slept with me about how God had dealt with me, and how I had disobeyed the spirit, being often called upon to speak, how awful it would be to be cast off from the Lord, I told her that I was bound in the spirit, and asked her if I kept the commandments of God if he would cast me off? She said no. But here was the first of my weakness that gave place for satan to arrange his host to take me. Why I gave up to such weakness I know not, nor can I account for it, except I had overdone myself. There was no distress of mind, and if there was, it was no reason why I should not have been treated with common humanity, for I offered no insult to any one, or treated any one ill. I only spoke of my own situation and asked them to do for me and not let me do wickedly. Miss Elza Lufkin came into the room, the lady whom I boarded with, and asked me what was the matter. I began to talk to her about my situation and to tell her how good religion was, and asked her to have it. Upon that she said many unkind things to me. I saw that she was angry with me. Why she should treat me so I did not know, for I had been very careful to observe all regulations and rules of her house, and never spoke about temporal things, to find fault. She had opposed me in attending my appointed meetings, and thought that I might go to a meeting that was nearer; but I thought it was not right to go to any other than where I was received by relating my experience, and that I ought to be my own judge. But the way of the Lord is contrary to the natural state of the heart. Since I came out of the hospital Miss Lufkin has told me that she was never so angry in her life as she was with me. If my religion had displeased her she ought to have told me so when I was well, and I would have found another place, and not waited until I was in a weak state and then take the advantage of my weakness. My sister Nancy came in to see me and began to scold me. I told her it was very wicked, she was not where she ought to be, or she could not do so. I arose and dressed myself and asked not to have any one of the unconverted come into my room. I sent for Elder Cole, but he not knowing my situation, sent word that it was not convenient. Brother James came in to see me and asked me to go home. I thought it was not best in my weak state, for I felt that I had no home, as I was violently opposed by my parents. I felt unwilling to leave my work, as I was tending three looms, and had calculated to make