out a certain sum of money by the first of February, for my brother James. I asked my sister to go and get me some assafoetida pills, I took three of them and went to bed and slept sound all night. In the morning I told my sister, who slept with me, I should not go in to work. She then began to scold, and shook me with anger, because I did not wish to rise. Then I asked her to let me alone, and told her it was very wicked. At that time Miss Lufkin came into the room and told her to let me alone, upon that she did, and began to prepare to go to her work. I asked her not to come back, for I did not want her with me. I thought she was not a proper person to be with me, as she did not understand my spiritual life. I went down and took my breakfast and returned up stairs to avoid my sister's saying anything. Soon my sister returned and I asked her to send for my minister. She said I should not see him nor any one of those people. I began to reason with her, and asked her why I could not see my own minister, and if I had not a right to choose my own people to worship God with; but I could not prevail upon her. I asked to see my brother James, but this request was not granted. I perceived my weakness was increasing and I thought the people of God ought to do for me. This was on Monday. About 4 o'clock in the afternoon Dr. Wheelock Graves came in to see me, and sat about ten minutes and conversed mostly with my sister about Mr. Miller, saying that he ought to be horsewhipped or put in prison. I concluded that my brother and sister had been telling him that I was one of his converts, although my sister professes to be washed by the blood of the Lamb. The Doctor felt of my pulse. I told him he did not understand my situation. He prescribed nothing for me and left the room, my sister sat sewing and did nothing for me. At night after the girls came out of the mill there was a great rush into my room, which increased my excitement. My room was full, some saying one thing, some another, while others were laughing. I asked Esther Richer, who stood laughing, to go out, as she had opposed me much about attending meeting among the Christian denomination. Upon that a good sister in Christ by the name of Townsend, said she thought there were too many in my room, and then they all left me alone with my sister. I thought I had hindered her some by her taking her work home from the shop, and I offered to sew for her. She took the work out of my hand and told me to go to bed. My sister slept with me. I spoke to her in the night, and she scolded me for it. As soon as I heard Miss Lufkin up in the morning I went to the door and asked her to take care of me and not let me do wickedly for my sister was unkind to me. I felt the want of a kind friend. She said she would, and made a fire in my room. I thought that I would give the world for a kind friend to take me and do for me. Again I plead to see Elder Cole, my minister, or some one of the church.