"No," he said to himself, as he walked down the Avenue de l'Opera,
"this child from Robinvast shall not obsess me thus hour by hour. Any
woman, provided she is acceptable to my senses, will deliver me from
this silly vision. Is there such a thing as love without carnal desire?
It would be contrary to physiological truth. If I love Rose, it means
that I desire her.... If I desire her, it means that I have physical
needs. Once these needs are satisfied, I shall feel no desire for any
woman and I shall stop thinking of this silly girl. Hervart can do what
he likes with her; I shan't mind; and, after all, will the satisfaction
which he derives from her be so different from that which some unknown
woman will lavish so generously on me? A little coyness, does that add
a spice? The sensation of a victory, a favour is better. Shall I obtain
a favour? Alas, no. But by paying for it one can have the most perfect
imitations. Ah! why am not I at Barnavast, gauging cubes of masonry,
with glimpses of Placide Gerard's podgy thighs? Now I know just what
will happen.... Does one ever know? It's only eleven in the morning and
I've got a week before me."
Still pursuing his stroll and his reflections, he entered the Louvre
stores. Here, provincials and foreigners were parading their
requirements and their astonishments. One heard all the possible
ways of pronouncing French badly. It was an exhibition of provincial
dialects. He jumped on moving platforms and staircases, passed down
long files of stoves and lamps, went down again, traversed an ocean
of crockery, went upstairs, found leather goods, whips and carriage
lanterns, tumbled into lifts, was caught once more in a labyrinth of
endless drapery, and after having wandered for some time among white
leather belts garters and umbrellas, he found himself face to face with
Mme de la Mesangerie, who blushed.
"Is it a stroke of luck?" he wondered.
Perhaps it was, for she said to him very quickly:
"I'm alone. My husband has just gone back. I was going to wire to you."
Then in a lower voice:
"Well here you are! I don't ask how it happened. Shall we profit by the
opportunity?"
"It seems to me that I was looking for you without knowing."
"I have two days," she said, "at least two days."
They left the shop, making their plans, which were very simple.
"Let's go," she said, "and shut ourselves up at Fontainebleau for a
couple of days."
"No, at Compiègne. It's more of a desert."
She wanted to start on the spot. Her provincial prudery seemed suddenly
to have flown away. She was no longer the calm mistress who had never
yielded except to the most passionate entreaties. The proud-hearted
woman was turning into the lover, full of tenderness, a little reckless.
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