"We are coming near our happiness," said Leonor.
They crossed the Oise, calm and gentle; then came the first houses of
Compiègne and in a moment the station. They felt a strange emotion.
She did not wish to go to the Bell Hotel. A cab took them quickly to
the Stag. Leonor was paying it off, but Hortense, wiser than her lover,
kept it to do a round in the forest. She was pitiless and laughed, but
with passion in her laughter; she changed her clothes and came down
again.
They passed, without seeing it, before that elegant casket of stone
which is the town hall. Following the fringe of the Great Park they
reached the Tremble hills, where oaks and chestnut trees emerge, like
the sails of ships, above the green ocean of bracken. They got down
from the carriage with the intention of losing themselves for a moment
in this bitter-smelling sea. The woman's white dress and fair hair left
a luminous track as she advanced, for she was flying, like a laughing
nymph before the hoarse laughter of the faun.
"It was about time," she said when the carriage picked them up to take
them on to the Beaux-Monts.
"Time? what do you mean?"
"Yes," she went on, "I was too entranced.... We'll come back. Would you
like to? We'll come back every year.... One needs a lot of virtue to
resist the persuasions of the forest."
"Virtue," said Leonor, "consists in being able to defer one's pleasure
or one's happiness.... I should like to see you in this scented sea, a
nymph, a dryad, a siren...."
"Do you want to?... You're driving me crazy."
The climb up the slope of the Beaux-Monts calmed their nerves. The
carriage, which had come round by the circular road, was waiting for
them at the top. They stood for a little while looking at the mist-grey
distances.
They drove back by the Soissons road; they looked at nothing now and,
since it had grown cool, they drew closer together and sat with clasped
hands.
Leonor was thinking of the curious chances that had transported him,
in a day or two, from Barnavast into the forest of Compiègne and had
changed his profession from architecture to love. In spite of the fact
that it seemed absurd and almost indelicate, he began, sitting in this
carriage with his mistress's hand in his, to think of his walk with
Rose.
"Rose is the cause of it all. It is she who brought me here, not you,
poor darling, who sit dreaming at my side. It is she who made me hungry
for the kisses I reserve for you?? kisses that any other woman might
have received in your place.... Yes, squeeze my hand, you may do it,
for I really think I love you. I love you more than chance, I love
you more than the woman I was looking for, because you are the woman
I found. Besides, the perfume of your soul will make sweet your own
pleasure without thinking at all of mine. In love, egotism is a homage;
it is also a sign of confidence."
The moment came. Silence fell with the night. She strove to hide her
shyness under an impudent smile.
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