He told me he was sorry to have disappointed me; but his friend had
prevailed on him to go to the play. This excuse was so sufficient, and
his wish to accompany Mr. Witred so natural, that I should have had no
misgiving whatever had I not observed a certain degree of constraint in
his manner, and a consciousness as if he had not told me all. However,
I was satisfied with the alleged cause of his absence, and I slept as
soundly as usual. But the next morning came Mrs. Pendarves, saying she
was glad to find me alone. She told me she had met my husband, and she
had given him such a set to! (to use her own elegant phrase.)
"And wherefore?"
"Oh! for going to the play with Maurice Witred and his lady."
"Lady! I did not know he was married."
"He is not married; and it was very wrong, and had an ill-appearance for
a young, married man to be seen in public, though it was in a private
box, with a profligate man and his mistress. I thought he would not tell
you; but I was resolved you should know it, that you might scold him
with 'the grave rebuke of a severe youthful beauty and a grace.'"
I did not reply, even to assure her I was better pleased that she
should scold my husband than that I should do it myself; for I knew
she was incorrigible, and her communication had thrown me into a
painful reverie; for I found that Pendarves had begun to practise
disingenuousness and concealment with me, and in the most dangerous
way; for he had concealed only half the truth; by which means persons
make a sort of compromise with their integrity, and lay a salvo to
their consciences; for they fancy they are not lying, though they are
certainly deceiving; whereas, if they tell a downright lie, they, at
least, KNOW they are sinning, and may be led by conscious shame into
amendment. But there is no hope for those who thus delude themselves;
and as _ce n'est que le prémier pas qui coute_, I felt that I had lost
some of my confidence in my husband's sincerity. Alas! when perfect
confidence between man and wife is once destroyed, there is an end to
perfect happiness! But I tried to shake off my abstraction; and I
listened as well as I could to my talkative companion, whose passion
was to give advice, that troublesome but common propensity in weak
people; and like such persons, she was always boasting of the advice she
had given, that which she would give, or of the dressings and _set-tos_
which she had bestowed, or meant to bestow. At length, however, much to
my relief she went away, and not long after Pendarves returned.
"So," said he, "I find Mrs. Pendarves has been with you, and suppose
(blushing as he spoke) that she has been telling tales of me?"
"And of herself," I replied, smiling as unconcernedly as I could; "for
she owns to the presumption of having given you a _set-to_, as she calls
it."
"Yes: but I suppose she told you the cause?"
"No doubt."
"And do you think it deserved so severe a lecture?"
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