These words subdued every particle of resentment in me: I threw myself
on her neck, and assured her she should never have so to reproach me
again; nor did I even venture to inquire for Seymour--but she was
generous enough to speak of him unasked. She told me he woke, after a
long sleep, more composed than she expected; "though, on his first
waking, he started me excessively," she said, "by asking for his mother,
and wondering to see me instead of her. My tears seemed to force back
his recollection; and in a faint voice, and with a look of wretchedness,
he added, 'Ah! I remember now;' and hiding his face in the pillow, he
wept aloud.
"And I--I was but a sad consoler, for I wept in silence by him. When he
was calm again, I wished him to rise; and before I left him, in the
fulness and tenderness of my heart, poor child! I stooped down, and
kissed his burning forehead. But I soon repented; for he exclaimed, 'Oh!
that was so like _her_! But she never--no, never more----' and again he
lay almost convulsed with his feelings.
"When this fresh paroxysm was over, I left him."
"But I am sure," said I, "that he will be soothed by that kind kiss in
remembrance, though it affected him painfully at the time."
"Perhaps so: but his grief, violent though it be, will soon go off, and
be after a time forgotten. Lady Helen was his mother, and he loved her;
but she had not been the chosen playfellow of his childhood--the friend
of his youth--the companion of his riper years--the sharer of every
joy--the soother of every sorrow--and the being endeared to him by
daily and confidential intercourse: and yet all these was she to _me_,
Helen."
"But, dearest mother, the love and regrets of a child are _very_
strong."
"I own it, Helen, especially when, as in the case of this miserable boy,
self-reproach mingles with them, and deepens every pang. Helen, my
child--my only treasure now," she added, speaking with difficulty,
"never, never, when I shall be as she is now, may you have cause to shed
such tears as his, Helen! Remember, there are no upbraidings so terrible
as those of one's own heart; and for your own sake, if not for mine, be
dutiful."
I was too much affected to reply; and my mother continued--"Yes, _he_
will recover his loss--you will recover _yours_, Helen. But what can
ever replace to me the loss of the friend of my whole life--the sole
relic of the joys that are past? George--Charles--Helen! you are all
gone now! and I," (here she raised her arms with a sort of appealing
look to heaven,) "I stand alone, unsupported, and unsupporting, too,
like the sole remaining pillar of a once-noble temple, to speak of
former pride and present desolation."
As my mother's imagination had now entered into play, my fears for her
health in a great degree vanished; for I knew that the grief which can
vent itself in imagery, however gloomy, is not of that sort which preys
rapidly on life; for it is
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