"I shall not try; poor old woman! After all, she has a right to pursue
her own happiness in her own way, only I wish that she had made up her
mind twenty years ago; though, to be sure, how could she?"--with another
smile--"since, at that time, her bridegroom was not much more than
born."
A dead silence supervenes--a silence of shocked stupefaction on the one
side, of rather dismal brooding on the other. At length Amelia nerves
herself to put a question upon which it seems to her, not very
incorrectly, that her whole future hangs. She does it in such a low
voice that none but very sharp ears could have caught it. Jim's ears are
so; practised as they are in listening for the stealthy tread of wild
animals, and for the indescribable sounds of mountain solitudes at
night.
"Will it--will it--make a great difference to you?"
Burgoyne lifts his eyes, which have been idly bent on the floor, and
looks straight and full at her across the corner of the table.
"It will make all the difference!" he answers slowly.
Poor Amelia is holding her handkerchief in her hand. She lifts it to her
mouth and bites a corner of it to hide the quivering of her lips and
chin. She does not wish to add to his pain by any breakdown on her own
part. But Jim divines the quivering even under the morsel of cambric,
and looks away again.
"Her money is almost entirely in her own power," he continues, in an
unemotional voice; "and when she announced her marriage to me, she also
announced her intention of settling the whole of it upon her--her"--he
pauses a second, as if resolved to keep out of his voice the accent of
satire and bitterness that pierces through its calm--"her husband."
Amelia has dropped both shielding hand and handkerchief into her lap.
She has forgotten her effort to conceal the blankness of her dismay.
Unless she conceals the whole of her face, indeed, the attempt would be
in vain, since each feature speaks it equally.
"Her whole fortune?" she repeats, almost inaudibly. "_All?_"
"What, all my pretty chickens and their dam?"
says Jim, oppressed by her overwhelmed look into an artificial and
dreary levity, and in not particularly apt quotation. "My dear, do not
look so broken-hearted. I am not absolutely destitute; I need not become
a sandwich man. I have still got my £800 a year, my very own, which
neither man nor mouse, neither curate nor vicar, can take from me. I can
still go on rioting upon that; the question is"--his words coming more
slowly, and his tone growing graver--"have I any right to ask you to
riot on it too?"
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