All along the River: A NovelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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All along the River: A Novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
Death would have delivered her. The tempest was her friend; and the
tempest had passed her by, and left her lying there like a weed, more
worthless than any weed that over the sea cast up to rot upon the
barren rocks. Yes, she was left there; left in a life that sin had
blighted; loathsome to herself, hateful to her God.
She locked herself in the cabin, while the hurrying footsteps overhead
told her that Lostwithiel was working with the sailors.
An hour later, and he was at the cabin door, pleading for one kind
word, entreating her to let him see her, were it only for a few
moments, to know that she was not utterly broken down by the peril she
had passed through. He pleaded in vain. She would give no answer--she
would speak no word. Indeed, in that dull agony of shame and despair
it seemed to her as if a dumb devil had entered into her. Her parched
lips seemed to have lost the power of speech. She lay there, staring
straight before her at all the swinging things on the cedar panel--the
books and photographs--and lamps and frivolities, vibrating with
every movement of the sea. Her hands were clenched until the nails
cut into the flesh. Her heart was throbbing with a dull, slow beat
that made itself torturingly audible. Did God create His creatures
for such agony? Had she been foredoomed everlastingly--in that awful
incomprehensible ante-natal Eternity--foredoomed to this fallen state,
to this unutterable shame?
Hours went by, she knew not how. Again and again Lostwithiel came to
her door, and talked and entreated--Heaven knows how tenderly--with
what deep contrition, with what fond pleading for pardon. But the dumb
devil held her still. She wrapped herself in a sullen despair--not
anger, for anger is active. Hers was only a supine resistance.
At last she heard him come with one of the sailors, and she could make
out from their whispering talk that they were going to force open the
door. Then she started up in a fury, and went and flung herself against
the cedar panels.
“If you don’t leave me alone in my misery I will kill myself!” she
cried.
The long night was over; and the sun was high. It seemed as if they
were sailing over a summer sea, and through the scuttle port she saw a
little foreign town nestling under the shelter of pine-clad hills.
She woke from brief and troubled slumbers to see this smiling shore,
and at first she fancied they must have sailed back to Cornwall, and
that this was some unknown bay upon that rock-bound coast; but the
sapphire sea and the summer-like sunshine suggested a fairer clime than
rugged Britain.
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