He lauded her kindness and self-possession, in terms
too extravagant to suit the zero humanity of her guardian's narrow
soul;--as he wound up the story to his daughter--he "was not a man
to get up a fit of heroics, and had no idea that Ballard had so much
palaver about him."
If his vile doctrine were indeed true, if all men were alike, and like
him, who of us would not unite in the orphan's prayer--would not cry,
with her, in despairing bitterness, "Heaven have mercy upon us, until
we are as callous as they!"
She had no mercy upon herself. There was an unholy joy in ruthlessly
trampling upon the few flowers that grew in her path: the ebullition
of a desperate despair, as when one is tortured by a raging tooth, he
probes, and grinds and shakes the offending member, self-inflicting yet
more exquisite pain, but bearing it better, under the insane impression
that he is wreaking revenge upon its cause; saying, with the poor
Dutchman, "ache on! ache on! I can stand it as long as you can!" And
"ache on! ache on!" said Ida to her heart, "the nerve will be dead by
and by!"
We consign to the lower pit of darkness the bloody demons, cloaked in
priestly stole, and "speaking great, swelling words of wisdom" and
peace, who tore limb from limb upon the rack, in "zeal for the Faith!"
but for him who pours out his atheistical misanthropy,--deadening,
petrifying the soul, and blinding the eyes, until in this, our
lovely earth, they see but a mighty charnel-house, full of nameless
abominations; who traduces God, in despising His noblest work, and
says: "Behold the Truth!" the murderer of the _heart_,--what shall be
his portion!
Carry Carleton's liking for the company of "that proud, disagreeable
girl," and her defence of her when attacked, was a nine days' wonder.
True, "she loved everybody," but here she manifested partiality, far
more than accorded with her schoolmates' notions of justice and reason.
Carry was unwavering. "I like her," said she, one recess, when her
corps of affectionate teazers hung on and about her. "It wounds me
to hear you speak disparagingly of her. You must admit that she has
redeeming traits. She is one of our best scholars, and if inaccessible,
is upright and honorable, and will not stoop to do an ignoble action."
"Yes," said Emma Glenn, happy to add her mite of praise, "Don't you
remember she found Julia Mason's composition behind a desk in the cloak
room, and brought it in examination day, although she knew that she was
her most dangerous competitor for the prize? I'm afraid I should have
been tempted to keep it, or leave it where it was."
"I should not be afraid to trust you, dear," said Carry. "You are
too ready to commend such conduct in others, to act a contrary part
yourself. As for Ida--have any of you reflected how much of what you
call her pride you are accountable for?"
"We! how!" was the unanimous exclamation.
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